For 16 years, all i did was to impress him... I did everything to gain his pride... For 16 years, i hv yet to achieve that... But my goal now to show him, that i can grow into an adult, that can take care of myself, and support our family, with him..

I had everything planned,.. I want to graduate, show him my diploma, i wanna get a job, i wanna treat him with my first paycheck, i wanna buy my first car, buy a house, brought a girl home, introduce her to him, get married, and bring him grandchildrens that he can play with..

I wanna show him, how ive grown... How ive matured, from a dumb son i was before, who couldnt get a good results in school, whos not as athletic as he is, couldnt pursue a career that he can brag about to his friends.

I know, im not an interesting guy to begin with... Im not like him... Im a mediocre... Ive never been under the spotlight, ive never been that one bright light... But if just once, I could gain his pride, to say "Im proud of you",.. I wouldnt care being a mediocre i am today

2020, one of the suckiest year we've all been through... Turns into one of the shocking, terrifying, devastating year,.... All my plans,... All my goals... Burned away... It has become, nothing but just dreams...

Read back the 2nd tweet in this thread... And add "without him" at every plans I've made...

For a moment, i think ive lost some of my drive, to even go on... Cause almost all of my life, ive spent it to earn his pride, to make him talk about me with his friends... What am i to do now when hes already gone...?

Its quiet in our household, i thought the house would be quiet only when im not home (cause im the loud one in the fam). Turns out, its even more quiet, when hes not around..

We've normalised the fact that hes not home often bcs of work. We are used to him not being here... We often say "hes at work... He'll come back".... The only difference is now, hes not coming back... Hes not coming back