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Feeling like shit thread:
Been MIA on Twitter because I really don& #39;t know. Been feeling shit lately. Ito pala feeling kapag may nasakyan kang tao emotionally. Especially if that person has become a big part of your life.
Ang hirap Lang i.explain tong nararamdaman ko. Yung tipong di mo deserve na umiyak dahil hindi naman ikaw yung todo nasaktan kase ikaw Naman Yung nanaket.
Yung tipong di mo deserve na mag beg for that person to come back kase di mo Naman deserve Yung pagmamahal nya kase di mo naman alam kung pano Ito pahalagahan.
Yung tipong di mo deserve mag reklamo sa kung ano ang sitwasyong mo ngayon dahil ikaw naman me gawa non.
Yung tipong di mo deserve na maging masaya kase you& #39;ve caused sorrow on some else& #39;s life. Ganun. Shit Lang talaga yung kaya kong i.describe sa feeling na to.
And all I could do now is to wish that that person would never encounter a person like me, coz in the first place, that person doesn& #39;t deserve to be treated like how I treated him.
I pray to God that he would find someone who& #39;d cherish him, love him and care for him more than I could ever have. He deserves it most.
What& #39;s left for me now is for me to forgive myself. To accept the fact that I& #39;ve been a bad person and to let go of that part of me and be better.
I& #39;ve read in a reflection about why it& #39;s hard to forget. And apparently, to forgive is to give up - to fully let go of all the pain and hurtful memories. But the question is, am I willing to let go of all those hurtful memories?
It& #39;s hard to say, because in those hurtful memories lies the most impactful memory. It is where I& #39;ve learned that even I, myself, have yet to discover who I really am as a person.
I& #39;m sorry if this thread is full of nonsense. This is the only place I know na pwede kong sabihin mga nararamdaman ko without the people who knows me knowing. Basta. Ewan ko sasarili ko. Lagi ko nalang sinasarili mga dinaramdam ko.
