I& #39;ve always been very transparent about my mental health struggles. This year has been a particularly tough one [for everyone, not just me of course] and a month ago, I tried to end everything. Thankfully, I didn& #39;t succeed and have resumed Therapy with a fantastic therapist.
One of my many issues during the Pandemic has been that I& #39;ve not been driving as much, which is always where I listened to my podcasts; especially @MovieCrypt. This podcast has for the past 4 years kept me sane in my darkest times and I realise that if I& #39;d been keeping up with it
there& #39;s every possibility, I wouldn& #39;t have attempted suicide. I realise now that The Movie Crypt; @Adam_Fn_Green and @TheJoeLynch are as much a part of my therapy as the therapist I& #39;m seeing because they bring on people who I relate to. I let THIS therapy slip and paid the price.
Moving forward I& #39;m gonna find two hours [minimum] a week wherever I can to indulge in podcasts and music [when walking even] so that I don& #39;t slip backwards. It was their episode with @AaronBKoontz that reminded me of all this and as always I& #39;m infinitely grateful.
Likewise, music is something that always helps me and is something I& #39;ve been neglecting. Yesterday when driving the car after dropping the kids to school, "When you grow up your heart dies" by @GUNSHIPMUSIC came on in my playlist and actually made me cry. Happy tears mind you.
It was the words "It& #39;s just a bad day, not a bad life", followed by "Keep running on, just hold on." that really resonated with where I& #39;m at now. Folks, media & arts, entertainment & personalities are so incredibly important to our mental state, which I& #39;m only really seeing now!
Sorry for the massive thread but this has been two days of intimate self reflection from a distance & I finally feel comfortable enough to talk about this stuff publicly [which is something I& #39;ve struggled with this time around].

Look after yerselves. Mind yerselves. You& #39;re loved
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