Im lazy. That's what my family said. But no one understands that this is just me, being tired of everything. I was in a rock bottom since my father passed away since June. I was lost and i didnt know what to do. I saw me, talking to myself every night hoping for everything to

Be better. I consult a psychiatrist and it seems like it doesnt work at all. I still cant sleep, i have troubles eating and i literally dont know what to do. I hurt myself multiple times and im afraid to return back to work because of my anxiety.

It seems like none of my friends actually noticed that im slowly drifting away, my counselor said that i need to have a support system but how can i do that if i feel like im a burden to them?

YN this is the first time im opening up about this cause im literally scared and i dont know who to talk to or what to do.

And i posted this rant here on twitter cause no one knows me. Maybe a few but i bet they wouldnt even open this thread because look at that attention seeking depressed piece of shit nahhh dont wanna get involve.

And for now i'll try to go to sleep, maybe when i wake up everything is gonna be fine.