Anyway it& #39;s not the first time I have this thoughts, I expect them to happen at any time.
I& #39;m kinda (not) used to it and I& #39;m pretty sure my friends don& #39;t even read them, it might be upseting and boring to read the same shit almost everyday lol

Also IN NO WAY I& #39;m blaming them (friends) I know this thoughts are my worst fears after what happened to me, they& #39;ve done nothing wrong and would NEVER leave them.
Still, sorry for reading this.
It feels like a whole & #39;nother person in my mind.

ANYWAYS GOOD NIGHT PLEASE DON& #39;T RESPOND TO THIS THREAD MY HEAD THINKS I& #39;M BOTHERING EVERYONE SO SORRY