Anyway it's not the first time I have this thoughts, I expect them to happen at any time.
I'm kinda (not) used to it and I'm pretty sure my friends don't even read them, it might be upseting and boring to read the same shit almost everyday lol

Also IN NO WAY I'm blaming them (friends) I know this thoughts are my worst fears after what happened to me, they've done nothing wrong and would NEVER leave them.
Still, sorry for reading this.
It feels like a whole 'nother person in my mind.

ANYWAYS GOOD NIGHT PLEASE DON'T RESPOND TO THIS THREAD MY HEAD THINKS I'M BOTHERING EVERYONE SO SORRY