tw murder // xxc is topping and he feels the finger and he doesn't know what to think but xue yang (xue yang!!!) is underneath him, gasping out things like "i want you" and "i love you" and xxc just wants the lies to STOP

so he puts his hand around xue yang's throat https://twitter.com/wenshenme/status/1305648768679698433

and the thing is, before he realizes what's happening, before he realizes this is the end of him, xy LOVES it. xxc can't stand what he's doing so he relents but xy just babbles more lies at him, "you're incredible, that's so hot, i'm so lucky, i've wanted you for so long"

and in the silence, following xy's end and xxc's, the little death and... the other one, xxc realizes now he'll never know. never know WHY. never know what was truth and what was lies.

and to think, xxc thought he knew before what it was to be alone