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I want to tweet about some body image things I’ve been dealing with, but it’s awkward for me because society is constantly validating my appearance. I am very aware that my life is easier because I am thin and pretty
Within my own family though “I have the worst body out of us” according to one sister, and am under intense and minute scrutiny, that I had kind of forgotten about while back in Milwaukee this summer
It is amazing how good my self confidence has been, and now at home my youngest sister made fun of some hair on my stomach and it’s left me hyperfocusing on myself and up all night crying and wanting to permanently vacate this body a bit
Even with how vain I’ve felt this summer I still cringe when I see my real smile in pictures, and then everyone makes sure I know all the fake selfie smiles are bad too
A deep fear of gaining weight was instilled in me very young and continues to be reinforced, and I’m still unpacking how that’s caused my anxiety symptoms as an adult to manifest largely around eating.
This thread doesn’t have a good closer, I don’t have any insight here, I mainly just needed a place to put all of these thoughts for the night so My garbage brain would stop thinking
