Our Psychology teacher told us that kids aren't any less intelligent than the older ones, they just think differently. And since I have hyperthymesia I remember being younger and thinking about how one day all of us have to die and being afraid of dying. But now I'm not. +

It's not about how long you live, it's about having a life worth living. Although most of the moments of my life were gloomy, sad, full of pain and lonely, I still have a few moments when I was genuinely happy, albeit less in number. +

It's said when you die, you get a 7 minute long flashback of memories. I have aphantasia so I'm not really sure if I'll be able to experience that, however if the flashback is like a dream then I, too, certainly will be able to. +

I didn't feel happy when I scored good in boards, mostly because it was after re-evaluation and I knew for a fact that more marks should have been increased. And there's always room for improvement. But when I saw Daniel make it past the semi-finals in I-LAND, +

I felt genuinely happy, probably the first time in months, or rather, this year. Happiness shouldn't depend upon big achievements, but rather, on small things in life. It's not the big achievements, but always the small things in life that matter the most.

Adding to the point about kids thinking differently, when I was younger I used to think that God controls each and every action of each and every person on this planet. And then I'd get in the paradox that I'm thinking that God controls my thinking because +

God is controlling my thinking. I used to think that we're mere puppets of God. As I got older I started to think that God cam read everything that goes within our minds. I think it's something which is actually believed by many. +

Then as I got even older I stopped thinking about all this as a whole, haha. Those were the days, when resilience was high and sorrows didn't matter much. I feel suffocated and feel like giving up so soon these days, probably because+

when I was younger I didn't know that it was an option. And it shouldn't be. Maybe listening to other people's sufferings has made me so weak, because when I was younger it was only me knowing about my sufferings. I really don't know tbh. END OF THREAD.