Food diary so that I can hate myself :)) maybe posting it here will help me control myself more in the future bc i'll feel accountable

Sept. 11:

-blueberry yogurt w 5-grain raspberry almond granola + strawberries
-mcdonalds apple pie
-leftover mcdonalds oreo mcflurry + a fibre-1 brownie
-iced coffee
-small sandwich + tomatos + a fibre 1 lemon bar

Total: 1510 calories yikes but at least it's under my TDEE

Sept 12:

-Carrots, grape tomatos, celery sticks w peanut butter, pepperoni stick, Fibre-1 cinnamon bun bar, & salted toasted almond mocha raspberry iced coffee
-1/2 bottle of powerade ultra
-Baked beans, everything bagel w salted butter, & zevia cal-free orange soda

Total: 1114

Sept 13
-baked beans + everything bagel w butter again
-frozen grapes, pretzels, dark chocolate covered almonds, fibre-1 lemon and brownie bars

Total: 1300... fucking almonds being so calorie-dense..

Haha jk. Idk how much it ended up actually being bc I stopped counting after 2,000 calories. But it's a lot.

Sept 14

-salted toffee mocha w whip + 8 ferrero rocher chocolates
-frozen grapes, fibre-1 lemon bar, pretzels, and garden harvest sun chips

Total: 1129

Ok so i obv didn't do the liquid fast, but i also didn't eat the entire box of chocolates, so... i'll take it as a victory

Sept 15 (forgot to do this yesterday lol)

-mocha, chocolates, & chips/pretzels the same as yesterday
-hazelnuts + cashews
-pepperoni stick
-fibre-1 lemon, cinnamon, & chocolate bars w whipped cream

Total: around 1700 kcal

Sept 16

-brownie & lemon fibre-1 bars w whip
-frozen red grapes
-DQ soft pretzels, carrots, + celery w PB
-a slice of DQ Reese PB cup ice cream cake
-glass of powerade ultra

Total: 1150

Sept 17

-salted hazelnut mocha + fibre-1 lemon & brownie bars w whip
-dark chocolate covered blueberries + hazelnuts
-slice of DQ cake w added pecans

Total: 1170

Sept 18

-A&W chicken BLT + fries
-caramel pecan brownie w whip, raspberries, + blackberries

Total: 1350

Sept 19

-zero ultra monster
-granola w blueberry yogurt, almonds, pumpkin seeds, & berries
-caramel pecan brownie w whip + mini red velvet cupcake
-chicken noodle cup a soup, white cheddar popcorn, & slice of garlic toast
-DQ ice cream cake + haagen dazs bar

Total: 1710

Sept. 20

-sour cream & onion popcorn, blackberries, nectarines, & lemon-lime zevia
-5 toffifee chocolates
-cinnamon fibre-1 bar w whip + raspberries
-caramel pecan brownie w whip

Total: 1230
Wow i truly just live off junk, huh? Well, at least i'm not gaining weight from it.

Sept. 21

-strawberries, carrots, grape tomatos, 2 mini red velvet cupcakes, 2 pcs fruit & nut milk chocolate
-white cheddar + sour cream & onion popcorn
-ice cream cake w pecans

Total: 1150

Sept 22

-bunch of garbage junk food :/

Total: 1380

Sept 23
-apple cinnamon oatmeal w strawberries, pumpkin seeds, & pecans + mint tea
-grape tomatos, caramel chocolate chip rice cake w peanut butter, fruit & nut milk chocolate, + pink monster
-bowl of popcorn
-haagen dazs ruby ice cream bar

Total: 1133

Sept 24

-sunrype fruit snacks + hazelnuts
-popcorn
-slice of DQ ice cream cake
-grape tomatos, frozen red grapes, a rice cake w PB, & fibre 1 cinnamon bar w whip
-haagen dazs ice cream
-orange monster zero

Total: 1244

Wild how i eat like absolute shit & still lose weight

Sept. 25

-carrots, grape tomatos, chicken cheese sandwich, cinnamon fibre-1 bar w whip, milk chocolate covered peanuts
-slice of DQ cake w pecans
-hazelnut toffee nut coffee, cinnamon fibre-1 bar, frozen grapes, 5 sea salt lime rice crackers

Total: 1296

Sept 26

-mcdonalds 4 pc chicken nuggets, small fries w ketchup, an apple pie, & a strawberry pie
-white monster
-chicken noodle soup + garlic toast w a bowl of hazelnuts, milk chocolate peanuts, & raspberry yogurt pretzels

Total: 1500 :(

Sept 27

-carrots, healthy choices pineapple chicken frozen dinner (brown rice, edamame, red pepper, pineapple, chicken breast), ultraviolet monster
-DQ cake slice
-sour cream & onion popcorn, sea salt lime rice chips, cinnamon fibre-1 bar, raspberry yogurt pretzels

Total: 1178

Sept 28

-pretzels, raspberry yogurt pretzels, chocolate peanuts, sea salt lime rice chips
-healthy choices meatball marinara meal, grape tomatos, cinnamon fibre-1 bar, lemon-lime zevia
-popcorn

Total: 1505 fuck me lol

Nvm it's 2,500+ calories bc i binged again like the worthess POS i am

Sept. 29

-carrots, grape tomatos, chicken cheese sandwich, white monster
-watermelon, grape, chocolate peanuts, caramel chocolate chip rice cake w peanut butter + pumpkin seeds
-raspberry yogurt pretzels, a piece of licorice, + white cheddar popcorn

Total: 992

Sept. 30

-hazelnut toffee nut mocha, grape tomatos, carrots, fibre-1 cinnamon bar + whip, chicken cheese sandwich
-pretzels + chocolate covered peanuts
-watermelon, grapes, caramel rice cake w PB + pumpkin seeds, ultra blue monster
-1/3rd of a brownie protein bar

Total: 1250

Oct. 1

-protein bar + hazelnuts
-mcdonalds
-rice cake w PB + pumpkin seeds, grapes, piece of licorice
-bowl of popcorn
-orange monster

Total: 1566 :( over my TDEE. BUT if i liquid or water fast tmrw, that amount spread over two days isn't as horrible, so i'm gonna try that

Oct 2

Junk!!!!

Prob around the same amount as yesterday. Was at 1170 but then binged on popcorn so prob 1500+ calories.

Oct 3

-vanilla core power protein shake, cinnamon fibre-1 bar, oatmeal chocolate chip quest bar
-bowl of pickles
-apple cinnamon oatmeal w cherries, strawberries, pumpkin seeds, & pecans
-caramel rice chips
-zevia zero-calorie energy drink (raspberry lime)

Total: 990

Oct. 4

-hazelnut mocha + cookies & cream quest protein bar
-orange monster
-amy's alphabet soup + garlic toast
-iced salted caramel coffee + chocolate caramel rice cake w PB & pumpkin seeds

Total: 1005

Oct 5.

-oatmeal chocolate chip quest bar
-dark chocolate almonds
-coffee w fancy syrups
-peach yogurt w granola, almonds, raspberries, pumkin seeds + a white cheddar rice cake
-watermelon + rockstar thermo hardcore apple

Total: 1180

Oct. 6

-starbucks salted caramel mocha
-haagen dazs ruby ice cream bar
-watermelon, chicken cheese sandwich, and honey roasted cashews, dark chocolate almonds, & reeses pieces

Total: 1240

Oct. 7

-chocolate core power protein shake + reeses pieces
-celery w PB, grapes, carrots, tomatos, a pepperoni stick, & caramel rice chips + a raspberry hazelnut coffee
-2 ruby haagen dazs bars
-fibre-1 lemon bar + popcorn :( i got too hungry

Total: 1398

I binged last night so 1393 -> 2,000+ cals.

Today, Oct. 8:
-chicken pasta soup at hand
-grapes + reeses pieces
-starbucks salted caramel mocha + pumpkin scone
-strawberry banana core power protein shake

Total: 1453

Oct. 9

Binged 2,000+ cals idk fuck me. The more i eat, the more i eat. Ppl try to say my bingeing is in reaction to restricting, but i only ever binge after i have proper meals and have been eating a lot, soooooo.....

Oct. 10

-everything bagel w butter + baked beans
-iced coffee, a handful of dark chocolate almonds, & frozen grapes

Total: 920 calories

Oct. 11

-2 bowls of popcorn, chocolate almonds & cashews, and white monster
-chicken cheese tomato sandwich + garlic mashed potatoes w corn
-core power strawberry banana protein shake + fibre-1 brownie
-binged on more nuts & rice chips

Total: 2430 kms bye

Oct. 13

Had to break my fast bc i felt too sick :(

-cup a noodle soup, quest chocolate PB protein bar, carrots
-dark chocolate almonds
-lil sandwich

Total: 800

Oct 14

-mocha
-core power chocolate protein shake
-1 dark chocolate almond + a few dark chocolate covered blueberries
-SunRype chocolate coconut Okanagan energy bar + fibre-1 brownie

Total: 554. Wish i'd stayed under 500 :(