If you chose Pile 2, this is your spread

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I always have questions for my clients when I read one on one for them. I look at this pile and I think—

"Why do you feel too complicated to be with another person?"

Do you understand that you're a big part of the reason why you're not finding love? Can you hold yourself accountable for a second to acknowledge all your negative thought patterns that prevent you from being open and vulnerable with other people who want to love you?

The people who chose this pile really believe that they're not lovable people. This is on top of how kind they are, how much they love they have to share with another person but they're so scared. I hate to say it like this, but you're wrong.

It is you getting in your own way of finding love. It is you that feels like your mistakes are burned into your skin. And when you look at yourself in the mirror, you don't see how lovable you are. There's a voice that tells you that you cannot fall in love.

You think you are the reason why other people failed to love you back. That's on them and not you, baby. People made you feel like you shouldn't have love, like you don't deserve it. And if they didn't say it to you, you were psychologically abused into thinking so.

You deserve a lover that's as gentle with you the same way you are with everybody else. Let's start there. When you start to have feelings for somebody, you shut down. You tried to turn them off. You deny yourself love. And yet you are waiting for love.

Deep down, as emotionally intelligent as this pile is, they think that vulnerability is really a weakness. Being vulnerable, to you, means you are putting a target on your own back by having romantic feelings.

This pile feels like they set themselves up for some type of heartbreak that may or may not happen.

But just the thought of that heartbreak happening make them deeply uncomfortable with growing intimate and close with another person. This pile deeply longs for a long-term, committed relationship.

I will not use the term monogamous because some people may be poly.

This pile feels like caring about people is a liability. This pile feels like attachment is a liability. It reminds me of:

"Nothing can wear you out like caring about people."

—S.E. Hinton

And I kind of understand why this pile may feel like attachment is a liability, especially if they worked to get into a stable place emotionally. And they did this by themselves, isolating, on purpose or just by being unable to relate to others. This pile is lonely.

What's interesting about those who pick this pile is that they don't want to let anybody in. They don't want anybody to see them as someone who is just stuck on negative experiences and unable to move on.

Those who picked this pile had probably been through things that are very difficult to move on from. They have been through things that are not normal. To the extent they feel like they can relate to others, they think that others can't relate to them.

I feel like you have been emotionally neglected and starved of intimacy. And in turn, you take that out on yourself. You take it out on yourself by depriving yourself of experiences that you know that you want. You tell yourself, "No, I can't."

Those who pick this pal find it very hard to let go and have fun. They find it hard to be present and in the moment. It's like they're stuck somewhere else.

He can only hold her for so long,
The lights are on,
But nobody's home,
She's so vacant,
Her soul is taken,
He thinks, "Tch, what's she running from?"
Now, how can he have her heart
When it got stole?
So he tries to pacify her—
What's inside her never dies

—He Can Only Hold Her, Amy Winehouse

This pile has to acknowledge that despite everything they've been through, the fact that they still choose to be a warm, kind and compassionate person that possesses such a deep empathy and understanding for other people is an incredible feat.

But when you're in the place where you start to like someone, when you start to fall in love, when you start to have feelings for someone, you start thinking of reasons, lies that you tell yourself, an efforts to stop what is only human nature.

You go back and forth between wanting love and cutting yourself off from it while expressing that love in platonic ways. It is through romance that you think that you are at your most vulnerable. You crave intimacy. You crave love. Sometimes, it's all you think about.

You become a mess of anxiety and inner conflict when you subconsciously pick up on the fact that another person may have feelings for you. You will only let it go so far. And then you stop. And then you hate yourself for it.

When are you going to understand that everything that has happened to you was at the lack of mercy from other people? Why do you blame yourself for what other people have done to you? It prevents you from living your life. And love is such an important aspect of your life.

Those who pick this pile become like a deer in headlights when faced with other people's emotions for them. If anybody currently has feelings for you, they know that you are fighting it. They know that you're holding them at a distance. I just see white noise. That's your mind.

You feel trapped by other people's emotions. You start to become evasive and unavailable, you think you don't need anybody, but the truth is, everybody needs somebody. Swallow that pill.

If somebody says "I love you" to me, I feel as though I had a pistol pointed at my head. What can anybody reply under such conditions but that which the pistol holder requires? "I love you, too."

—Kurt Vonnegut

For those it may resonate for, you are secret romantics. It kind of makes me want to roll my eyes. Sort of like how you may do, reading text from people who like you so much because you're a likable person and somehow you think it's fake.

But you relish in that attention.

This pile has control issues and while the Let Go Of Control Issues card did not come out, it is because you are controlling your outcomes in regards to love. It's you.

Just admit to yourself that you want to love somebody with every fiber of your being and don't be ashamed.

There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to share your life with somebody.

—Augusten Burroughs

This pile can read people incredibly well. You see right through people, and because you've made mistakes of not trusting your intuition when it came to certain people, you really think that there's nobody.

You just got to find the balls to let someone in.

And yes, it's going to be the right person. But because of your habits that cause an extreme degree of self-sabotage, because for your unhappiness and loneliness, the type of loneliness that makes your chest feel empty, you may honestly stop this person.

You may make this person think that you don't like them when you really do. As much as you desire authenticity and truth, when it comes into your life in the form of a person, you may be the one to stop all that love that's all for you in its tracks.

What's worse is that you're going to know that this is your person. You are going to know it and it's going to eat you up inside. Why do you feel so terrified of something you want so badly? Come on. Let go.

Something about them is going to be so familiar that it shakes you to your core. You may have had dreams or visions of this person. You're very intuitive, but some of you doubt that.

Have a nigga thinkin' that he met you in a past life

—Best I Ever Had, Drake

So punish me, I'm hanging on your noose,
So pull me up, so I can breathe with you,
I know, I've been missing a long time
to know I had to move,
I've been waiting my whole life
to know I wanted you
Are you feeling me slowly?
Take your fucking time

—WANTED U, Joji

They're going to recognize you. I don't think you'll be able to run from them. Welcome to the person that stops you right in your tracks. Get ready for a ride. I was hearing trains go by earlier as I typed. Don't miss your train. This is your train.

This is the relationship that takes you to places you've never been. This is goosebumps. This is telling someone all the things that go on in your head. This is the love you have never experienced ever in your life.

I'll stop the world and melt with you,
You've seen the difference,
And it's getting better all the time,
There's nothing you and I won't do,
I'll stop the world and melt with you

—Melt With You, Modern English

"The future's open wide," indeed. This person is your future and you are not your past. I can't help but think of Fight Club—Some of you will meet this person in a difficult time of your life where things are just uncertain. You'll feel unworthy of love, but that's a lie.

Let that person help you.

I think when you meet this person, you'll feel like they see straight through you. You will feel so exposed around them, even if you don't tell them much about you, for some reason, I'm seeing this pile look into another person's eyes and they're fixated on you. The intensity.

And I'm not going to lie, this reminds me of some tweet that was like, "Have you ever been so attracted to someone that it's driving you insane?" I can't tell who's energy that is, but you can expect some conflict, a pursuit because you're evasive.

I want to say that this person will stop at nothing to win you over. They're not going to give up. They're not going to go anywhere. When you are apart, you will receive signs from the Universe. You cannot escape this person.

And as much as you try to not feel, as much as you try to deny it, as much as you want to pull away and as much as you will, you'll feel an undeniable link to this person.

This pile needs to listen to Everywhere by Michelle Branch because the song deeply resonates. Ridiculously so. Especially that second verse.

And when I touch your hand,
It's then I understand,
The beauty that's within,
It's now that we begin,
You always light my way,
There never comes a day,
No matter where I go,
I always feel you so

—Everywhere, Michelle Branch

Your Crystal Oracle Cards from left to right are:

Sugilite
Rhodochrosite
Hiddenite
Aragonite
Jasper
Meteorite

Where you feel as if your intuition may have been fractured, the Sugilite card begs to differ. This is where all the pieces fall together, and for some of you, it may have to fall apart first. Then you can accept that all of this is happening to lead to this moment.

Don't get me wrong, there's no reason why you should be suffering, but if it leads to this, should you be using yourself as the primary outlet for all your frustrations? Absolutely not. Whereas you're used to saying, "No, I got this," this person says, "I've got you."

The only way I see this being unrequited is if you make this person feel so unwelcome. And that's a hard thing for someone like you to do. I think you should just let it happen.

I feel as if you will have no choice, this is just one of those circumstances and you feel like the Universe is playing a sick joke on your life because it feels like right person, wrong timing, when it's you playing the sick joke on yourself. Don't play yourself.

The next card is Rhodochrosite. This is actually one of my favorite crystals for healing. Out of any of the crystals that this pile has, I suggest you get Rhodochrosite to allow yourself to release any ill feelings you have towards love.

Rhodochrosite will help you grieve things you feel like were taken from you. You're supposed to finally be able to let your guard down when you run into this person. It is a time to embrace vulnerability. Not a time to fear it. Time may go by, but some things still hurt.

It's okay.

The next card is Hiddenite. Eventually, this person is going to know you and not the facade you hide behind to protect yourself. I know that sounds completely scary to those who chose this, but there's truth in this card. They will accept you. Accept them back, damn it!

And I think this person will finally help you feel safe. there is something about that person that reflects parts of you that you try to turn off. They are so supportive. They're there for you. You need to finally let someone be there for you.

Aragonite and Vandanite came out together. These crystals are both Root Chakra stones. you may assume incorrectly that this is just going to be like every other time, unstable. When in reality this is the most stable relationship you'll have if you just get out of your own way.

What this pile needs to learn is that when they come into contact with this person, they need to let their guard down. This person will be patient with you because letting your guard down is not easy. It is a process.

But this person will not let you slip into your comfort zone of not being known, not being perceived, avoiding potential threats. the only thing that stands between you and this person is you.

I feel like this person is going to come so differently and anybody else. Meteorite makes me think, "heaven-sent," and what does Kyle really needs to understand is that sometimes there is no explanation as to why something happens. There's no point in figuring it out.

Go with the paradigm shift. You need to learn how to flow with your feelings again. I know you feel like a robot sometimes. I know you feel as if nobody will ever understand you but you are gifted with understanding everyone else.

I know it hasn't worked out with anybody else. And then you meet the reason why. Don't fight that reason. Don't run. Don't be scared. Be open. Be receptive. Follow the signs from the Divine. Eventually these signs will be so loud that you will feel so overwhelmed.

This person is a big part of your growth. This is about finally being in a healthy, stable relationship. This is about not casting down anything that feels too good to be true. It's not going to feel too good to be true. It's going to feel right. This is a game changer.

It is here that you get to understand all of your issues and instead of letting them control you, you control them. One person cannot be your healing, but they can sit back and support you through it all.

Enough with the leaving before you get left. For once in your life, you will learn to sit still and really know what it is to feel someone, to have them feel you in return.

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