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Okay so,,, i just rt& #39;ed a thread about depression, and it& #39;s yknow,, very accurate. I& #39;m not actually sure if they& #39;re symptoms less spoken about, but knowing that I myself have depression,, I noticed I have run into the things in that thread many, many times. 1/
Everything, every single action that I make feels draining. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep I feel fatigued and tired and I& #39;m yawning most of the day just wanting to stay in bed for eternity. 2/
I wish it was fun. Sometimes, I get small breaks where I do enjoy myself and manage to get quite a bit done and take pride in myself, but all the days leading up to that and after are dull and time flies by when I feel like I& #39;ve accomplished absolutely nothing. 3/
I used to go through school and even my home just,, not really acknowledging that I was in my body, that I was a living breathing person. Instead, there were quite a bit of times where it felt like I was just watching myself, staring from a window, wondering what was next. 4/
Its an uphill battle and I& #39;ve been trying to work on, yknow, being more positive and upbeat about certain things. But sometimes I don& #39;t get the energy or feel like I& #39;m able to do what I planned on, and then i curse myself for it. I get angry and guilty about small things i did 5/
and then it grows until it either consumes me or it fizzles out. I imagine myself stuck in a purgatory, like,, I& #39;m just, in a gray area and no matter how much I struggle to leave im stuck. Trapped. With time skipping by, leaving me no chance to think or enjoy what I want. 6/
My body aches so I just,, don& #39;t move much. I stay in my lil gaming area and yeah, I& #39;ve gotten bad habits from it. I& #39;m gonna be trying harder with fixing them. It hurts to be alive and moving ig, but i know that things will only get worse if i don& #39;t do small things. 7/
It always takes small steps to get to bigger things, it& #39;s always okay to start small. Its okay if you don& #39;t do everything you wanted for today, and every future day. Mellow out, you deserve time to chill. You deserve breaks. It can be hard sometimes, but it& #39;s okay!!
