Navigating mental health!

I am thankful that discourse around mental health has begun in mainstream media though a sad death of a Bollywood star sparked it.  under psychiatric treatment since I was 18, I can say its harsher for women/girls than boys.

It started sedative kind of doses per weeks for a month or two at the hospital of Dr Mastud in Barshi within a few days after my mom passed away. I have been on medication since then. My mood swings from like I am gonna rock the world, to not to come out of bed for a day.

Keep reading one day and on other day watch TV passively. One day I am decked up, other day I don’t even comb my hair. One day I eat a lot, other day I don’t get sensation of feeling hungry and I don’t eat.

Some days I keep feeling crying for no reason, other day I am enthusiastic. Some day I talk, other day I don’t talk at all. Some days I composed, other day I talk illogical based on my moods. Some day I crack hardest of problems, other day I cannot do a simple task.

Psychological problems never go away. They relapse. After 2002-03 episode, I was just on medication. But I had to undergo ECT in Poona Hospital in April-June 2010. Or I was not feeling like eating for days and my weight gone down to 37kgs in 2015. Since they I am managing well.

I am thankful that my parents’ economic condition is so well that to take psychiatric treatment which is expensive everywhere, was not struggle. Or I don’t have to worry what if I could not do anything in my life.

Special thanks to treatment I took at Asha Hospital of Dr M S Reddy in Road No 14, Banjara Hills, Hyderabad from 2011-2013. This treatment has changed me from being suicidal to person who could know way to deal with problems.

I could achieve a lot in the last 17 years despite having severe mental health issues since my 18th. I compete with people who are absolutely fine. So it is not bad, I guess.
Happy Birthday to me!