i can’t describe to you how difficult being denied music school admission two years in a row has been on my identity and self worth, especially when all my peers back home got into great music programs their first go around. i often wonder what’s wrong with me? why am i not good

enough? it pains me that i can’t spend as much time doing and learning what i’m most passionate about. being so separated from music from the first time in my whole life for so long has caused me to question my identity so much. all in all, it’s been a painful experience,

especially if you’re aware of the personality types and traits i possess. i have no point to this thread really. just want to vent. the near two years i’ve spent applying and being denied music schools has been absolutely heart breaking for me. i feel like i can never win.