A THREAD: I'm back on Twitter, but a brush with death changed many things for me. Afterward, they told me I had a fatal illness, so I deliberately disconnected from my friends, not wanting to sadden them when I died, and the normal life expectancy was anywhere from 3-10 years...

... as it turns out, it might not kill me at all now, IF I avoid Covid19, which my lungs could not handle. That is the end of that topic, since it's not what I'm here to talk about. What I'm here to talk about is what has changed for me...

I still love Benedict and follow everything he does but while I was ill, I found a special boy who has given me the will to live through the disgusting Trump admin and pandemic. The personification of hope, beauty, kindness, strength, and boyish mischief that is YUZURU HANYU...

... Yuzu is a light in the darkness for so many. His figure skating is pure beauty which wraps your soul in comfort when you need it most. His strength & perseverance are inspirational - an asthmatic who fights to the end of his programs, often gasping for breathe at the end...

...a delicate-framed boy who built phenomenal strength, fighting thru many injuries, illnesses, even an earthquake stopping his training, winning his 2nd Olympic Gold on painkillers before finishing rehab, though he was told it might end his career if he skated on that ankle...

... the most inspirational moment for me is the one most of his fans refuse to watch because it's too painful. 2014 Cup of China. He had a collision with another skater during warm up, just before he was supposed to skate. His head hit the ice, knocking him out, he needed...

...stitches on his head and chin, he sprained his right ankle, injured his left thigh, and had a massive bruise to his midriff. But Yuzu is an incredibly fierce competitor, and he knew if he didn't skate, he wouldn't be allowed in the Grand Prix final. So he insisted...

... His coach, Brian Orser, "allowing" him to skate is controversial. Yuzu fell 5 times but his lead in the short was so huge, he managed to win the silver medal. He was barely able to stand after he skated, and after he got his score, he cried his heart out with relief...

...It's those tears that hurt fans so much, since he had a near nervous breakdown, letting so much suppressed emotion out all at once. But it was raw, pure relief. He was glad he skated through the pain and so was I, because getting to the final was all that mattered to him...

... Therefore, it was all that mattered to me too. I cry with him every time I see it. It was a victory of his incredible will power. If you're embarrassed by emotion, you don't want to be a Yuzuru Hanyu fan, bc it's his emotional expression on & off ice that makes him special...

... I remember him telling an interviewer that he's a cry-baby, and he cries hardest when he's happy, while pain only makes him stronger. This sensitivity is why music permeates his body as he steps out on the ice. It's what makes him the official GOAT of figure skating.

So this account is being transformed into a Fanyu account. Blessings to the boy who saved my life. May HIS life be perfect in every way.