See ok the thing about this pandemic for me like...my day to day hasn’t really changed because I’m a recluse and most of my friends are elsewhere anyway. The thing that sucks is that obviously they’re being impacted and taking breaks from life to do what’s best for them mentally-

-Which means they’re not around as much. And that’s great for them I want them to be healthy and alive and don’t wish them doomscrolling 24/7 for their sanity. But this also means my support systems are scattered and I feel selfish for wanting them around—

—when I know they need to do what they need to do. I can’t blame them.
I just feel like alone and flailing? And guilty for trying to like ask people for help when I know they’re all having issues keeping themselves afloat as well

AND LIKE all of the therapists have a waiting list lol I’m just!!! Ugh.

Y’all I just miss my friends.

I also just really don’t want to use my friends as therapists that’s part of the thing too I just don’t wanna dump my stuff on top of their stuff so like.

Also sorry I don’t have a side twitter for this rambling so lol sorry