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im so fucking drunk its funny help my gravitation doesn& #39;t work
i mean it works but you know
I dont fee it
feel
IM SO FUNNY
not really but whatever thats not important
im depressed like really but tou know laughing isnt so bsd
LMAOOOO
WANNA SING RN LMAOOO VIBING
i wanna kill myself
but i wont. i mean. i know the consequences of that so i wont but. i still want to
So bad sometimes. like today was so fucking shit and not bc something happened but because the world is just so shitty
So so shitty and i hate it here so much i just want OUT but i never will i know that
no matter what i say i& #39;m too scared of what happens after to both me and everyone affected so i never will
unless i snap but.. well thats a different story
idk its weird. It works weirdly in weird ways you know
HELP IM DRUNK AND IT SHOWS JUST LOOK AT MY LAST TWEETS IMBDHF I DEFINITELY GET MORE HONEST
still crying iver Dazai i love himnsk much because it& #39;s finally real representation of what its like for ME
thinking abt what odasaku said and i just.. I WISH i was as strong as dazai to pick ine side and settle but i keep switching between "fuck this shit lets go mad" to "yeah maybe if the world is alr shitty maybe i should try better" but i never pick a side im stuck
ANYWAYS THIS IS FUNNYB!!! AND LIKE NOT ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT EVERYTHING IS FUNNY WHEN IM DRUNK SO YNO
Lol
km so sad
i just wamt an s/o that actually loves and guves a shit about me and someone who it& #39;s natural with HOLDNONR ADIO TALKING ABOUT BTS HIGJNG
okay anyways sorry distractions but i just FUCK!!! just FUkc man?!!! you knowb!!!
like i want someone who gives a shit about me and i know nobody really does not in the way i want them to and im a shitty person i alr know that so im never gonna find someone who cares about me like that
and i already know that but it still fucking HURTS tocknow that i& #39;m gonna have to spend my entire life lonely it SUCKS i wish i could just find someone but i want something GENUINE nad dk if its my brain being messed up from fiction and hvaING UNREALISTIC standards rn or what but
I KNOW I DONT GET ALONG WEL WITH PEOPLE AND I WISH I GAVE MORE OF A@SHIT MAYBE THEN IT WOULDNT@BE LIKE THIS BUT IM SO DETACHED FROM HUMANITY THAT I JUST
im sorrybto everyone who grew close to me you all deserve so much better
and even suen like i love her and i miss her and everything but i KNOW im stupid and needy and expect too much and its not her fault im just stupid and im sorry and i just want others to be happy what i feel like doesnt mattwr
i dont even know the point of these tweets im just.. going through itnim
being drunk isnt what i thought it would be
you cant make excuses like "i was drunk so" because it doesnt work like that you& #39;re still sober you just dont filter your actions anymore
like im. my brain works right im like sover my gravity just isnt right and im more open and its not lights out or something possesing you things just dont work like that or maybe i havent been drunk enough to experience that but FUCK
im just.. going through it. im fine sort of not really but theres no way to fix it so i just choose to say im fine because its better than being negative all the time
like ofcourse im not fine im NEVER fine i just pretend i am and IM NOT i ever was and im
im just sorry to everyone around me
ffs even tweeting rn feels stupid because "what if one of ur mutuals has some trauma from alcohol or something" and i dont wanna make anyone feel like shit but im so scared to just leave and feel lonely twitter is my last hope at really interacting with people and i just im screw
im screwing it up already Zdynatkite DYNAMITY DYNAMITE ON RADUO
I HATE THAT SONG IT JUST ISNT MY VIBE BUT IT FEELS OS RELAXING RN I LOVE BTS SONGS
drunk ax needs to take a break
anyways km sorry. im just sorry. and i know me being sorry doesnt change anything and im manipulative and whatever and im just i hate it here i dont wanna exist i really dont because i KNOW im not shit but im not strong enough to fix it so im just suffering and making everyone e-
else suffer and it jsut sucks i just want out and to stop hurting people
