i want to apologize to anyone who i’ve crossed a line with. i know i do tend to get really clingy and just really affectionate right away and i know it makes people uncomfortable and/or they don’t feel the same way so i’m sorry if i’ve ever made you feel uncomfortable with me

and i genuinely care so so much about you if i’m that affectionate, more than you know. maybe you were there for me and i don’t know how else to give back, or maybe you’re just so great and i don’t know how else to tell you “hey! thank you!” without seeming ungrateful

if i say “i love you” and you’re my friend, i genuinely mean it with all of my heart. but im slowly learning that sometimes it isn’t reciprocal and that’s on me hurting myself. just know that i do care about you even if you don’t for me. and if i make you uncomfortable im sorry

and again, i just care about you so so much, each and everyone of you who i’ve been affectionate with. im going to try my best to hold back and be less clingy but just now i love and care about you all so much. thank you for being there for me. i plan on doing the same for you https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz">

and same goes with me constantly messaging you and checking in on you and what not. i’m sorry if you found me annoying or if you thought i was overstepping because i know i was. i need to learn my place and know where i stand and stop trying to be there when i’m not wanted

and there’s always a thought in the back of my mind “oh they don’t actually like you”, “oh they don’t actually appreciate you, they just what you to shut up and leave them alone” but it’s just part me overthinking and part me putting people on a high pedestal in my eyes