sabi nila anlaki daw ng pinayat ko. if this was a year ago maybe i could be happy about that. sa totoo lang sobrang dami ko nang nararamdaman na hindi tama sa katawan ko. and this tweet is actually the first time i'm even mentioning this. ewan.

hindi na ko nahihirapan magtiis pero parang ang hirap lang mag open up kasi the moment i talk to someone about it, everything becomes real which is what i don't want. just this once feeling ko kailangan ko lang sabihin na di ako okay. this pain has become too real to ignore.

i'm now face to face with more demons. but i've gone through most of my battles alone and i'll try harder. i honestly don't know if i'll be ok again but that's the direction i'm looking at. i'll make it through this, go back to this thread, and officially move on from all this.