i had this one friend back then who got very close in 12th we would talk a lot and he insisted on calling and talking (I dont like calls) and shit it was all fun or whatever I didn't mind much, I had a crush on him before we even became friends so shit escalated 1/n

I always have this fear whenever my friends are guys, like yes we know e/o a lot but there could be this part of them that goes like "ava enta pesra da, set ayiru da, commit ayiruvo da, she likes me " to their boys gc or whatever 2/n

I thought he wasnt like that? coz I was a blind bitch and yea I'm a very reserved person, my parents are v conservative and if any rumors made rounds I'd have seen hell so I always try to avoid rumors max and also get v angry/ frustrated when someone starts a rumor bout me 3/n

with this guy multiple people started asking me if we were dating, what I didn't realise was throughout the years in school+college all my best friends from my batch has been guys and this didn't happen with anyone else from them. I realised it now and 4/n

It just struck me that he did what I feared these guys would do, go brag about having a girl to talk with, in their all guys gc painting the girl out to be someone who craves attention from guys and shit 5/n

and end of this thread is that this realisation will eventually lead to trauma where I start doubting all my guy friends because of this one scumbag who did this shit. He didn't even bother keeping in contact after moving to another city I feel ashamed to have liked him.