her anger at media for not representing sapphics properly so she couldn't relate growing up and hence felt alone and then her anger at herself for thinking that she is not representing us and then her attempting to fix that and then her being all meta with "just like a folksong" https://twitter.com/iamyourdaisyy/status/1289674279848574976

my favorite theory of mine is that inthaf is a heteronormativity diss track and seven just feels like natural progression

her disappointment in herself as a "hero" is apparent on the archer but she also sings about how her own heroes died all alone so she has no one to look up to? so she has no idea how to do this.

that's where the "hundred thrown out speeches" comes from. "speech" is a word which is used when you are addressing an audience. not necessarily your lover. that's why i think speech here means people and everyone at large.

seven comes as a response to that. she writes a folksong about young love and even then she talks about her failure that she wasn't able to protect someone and she also talks about how the last time she felt free was when she was seven before she realised she is maybe gay.

and then entire folklore happens and then we get to the lakes and she draws a contrast that "i haven't moved in years" vs "i hit my peak at seven, feet in the swing over the creek" which is to show that she doesn't feel free at all and escaping is the only way she will.

There is also an underlying feeling that "if i dont die alone, if i show these kids that this can be done. will that be enough? or am i a terrible hero who is letting them down? i hope they have songs they can pass their love through. i hope they don't have to hide in the closet"

so her wanting to make it work with lover not only because she loves them but also because cruelty always always wins in the movies when it comes to sapphics. so maybe this one time she will beat cruelty for us?

i am mentally ill