~B.E.D isnt a joke~

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i used to have b.e.d that lasted from age 6 to age 12. its still an eating disorder, its not any different just because it can make you gain weight. so heres what i felt like during that 6 yrs:
— i was constantly hungry, always thinking about food. the periods where i would try to stop it id get hungry within an hour of not eating

— my stomach would literally burn because i would binge at least once a day and did that for a year and a half straight
— it made my depression worse, because on top of little motivation, it started to become more and more of a chore to even get out of bed

— same thing with my hygiene

— i was spending my days worrying about when id be able to binge next, which made me resort to stealing food
- *from school, restaurants, my own pantry, my mother and friends, etc*

— my teeth would be literally rotting all the time, and it just got worse because i was too poor for the dentist

— it also got worse when my binging got so bad that id involuntarily puke after every binge
— it became a cycle where people would call me fat and id get fatter to cope

— watching people eat made me sick because i couldnt eat what they ate

— when you get to a certain point, chest pains become a regular thing

— when food wasnt around, i began eating non-food items
- *napkins, paper, rubber, paint, nail polish, i even resorted to my own nails*

— it cost a shit ton of money for my parents to keep buying food, it didnt help we were already poor

— i gained 60 lbs in 2 yrs and over 100 lbs in 6 yrs, im still trying to lose it
if i hadnt been so insecure at such a young age, maybe i wouldnt still be suffering the consequences of this disorder. i still wanna binge like i used to all the time. it still hurts to think abt food like that.
B.E.D isnt a joke. its fucked up my life so fucking much, and its fucked up so many other people& #39;s lives. im so overweight now because of it. its not any more or less serious than any other ed, all eds are serious. stop gatekeeping eds https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤩" title="Vom Star geblendet" aria-label="Emoji: Vom Star geblendet">
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