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Sorry for dumping this here instead of my priv but idk i'm just really tired of shrugging it off
I wish the world was so forgiving, but in reality i'm just being selfish and running away from stuff because i cant do them properly. i dont know what to do to fix this
Sorry for dumping this here instead of my priv but idk i'm just really tired of shrugging it off
I wish the world was so forgiving, but in reality i'm just being selfish and running away from stuff because i cant do them properly. i dont know what to do to fix this
I rly cant put my mind on something, and when i try to think why, its probably cause i have no clear goal i can follow and a reason to push me forward...
Even if i know some things are important and needs to be done, i can't bring myself to be dedicated and start working on them
Even if i know some things are important and needs to be done, i can't bring myself to be dedicated and start working on them
The reason why im able to work on some stuff are either bcause 1) i have reliable friends to do this together with, or 2) i genuinely wanna do it cause i love it
For works only I can do (aka. personal responsibilities), i cant. When i thought i've finally gotten over this phase,
For works only I can do (aka. personal responsibilities), i cant. When i thought i've finally gotten over this phase,
i end up returning to this point again. Becoming irresponsible and delaying my duties,,,
Using excuses like "mentally, i'm not in the state to be able to do this" is really cowardly cause i'm only too airheaded to start working on them
Using excuses like "mentally, i'm not in the state to be able to do this" is really cowardly cause i'm only too airheaded to start working on them
and i simply know that i wont be able to finish them as they expect me to do when my head is blank like this,,
I honestly believe that i'm really no good when i don't have people i'm comfortable with who i can trust in my works.... but that's just really weak cause im supposed
I honestly believe that i'm really no good when i don't have people i'm comfortable with who i can trust in my works.... but that's just really weak cause im supposed
to be able to carry on with my personal works without bothering what my partner is like...
so i don't know. i really don't know.
i dont know either whats the point i wanted to say in this thread, i just wanna let out whatevers bugging my mind these past few days
so i don't know. i really don't know.
i dont know either whats the point i wanted to say in this thread, i just wanna let out whatevers bugging my mind these past few days
My debts, my organization works, my club works, my college preparation, i couldnt do them all. even till this day.
what's worse is i don't have the motivation to translate when it was supposed to be something i find joy in.....
what's worse is i don't have the motivation to translate when it was supposed to be something i find joy in.....
