Lately I've been working on reconnecting with anger.

Growing up, it was the driving force of my trauma. Angry men taking it out on me and so I associated anger with masculinity.

But fuck that shit. Women should be angry. I should be angry.

It's weird feeling like a natural reaction to hard situations is inherently toxic.

I buried everything I felt deep down just to get through life and recovering it has kinda sucked. Learning to let myself be sad, learning to let myself be angry. Digging out of a depression hole.

I want to watch Birds of Prey again because that was a major catalyst for me dealing with it.

I'm sick of seeing women on film encounter horrible garbage and "take it all with dignity".

Fuck you. Female characters should scream and beat people up and tell them "suck my dick"

I just think about how all the coolest ladies in action movies come with righteous indignation built in. Sarah Connor, Ripley, Rita from Edge of Tomorrow, Furiosa is literally named FURIOSA

Compare that to the nothingness that is Captain America, Black Widow, Wonder Woman. Blah.

Whatever, this is a movie thread. Fuck New Mutants. Every teenage girl in that movie is sexually abused or branded or (attempted) euthanized and none of them feel like real people.

Just cardboard cutouts with glowing superpowers running around doing nothing.

Men don't want to make movies about angry women. Studios don't want to make movies about angry women.

Inspiring women should be pleasant to watch and never say fuck except maybe one time so they can keep their PG-13 rating.

I'm a little angry about it.

Anyway, to touch on the original point of this thread... the men that have hurt me because of their own anger are the same men that don't want women to be angry.

They've taken a lot from me but I won't let them take that. Not anymore.