My parents dah bercerai for almost 3 years. Bermaksud dah almost 3 tahun juga my dad single. I know he deserves to know someone new. I do know that heās not mine 100%. We had a strong relationship back then but I destroyed them back in 2018.
It has never been the same talking to my dad. I cuba but it never worked. Whenever someone asked/told my dad about marrying someone new, my dad will be like, ākamalia pegang lesen, dia tak kasiā.
Itās time to let go. Itās time to realise that my dad is not 100% mine. Itās time to let him find someone to take care of him. I canāt be there always for him, things have been awkward since 2018.
I cried a lot back in 2018, alone. I screamed alone in this house. I want to let him go but itās not easy. Whenever someone talks about getting married again with my father, I can never hide how I hate that topic.
But I know, I canāt control him. Itās been 3 years. Sama macam mana sometimes I want my own happiness/privacy, he deserves that too. Iāll try to let him go. But I might not be able to always be by his side. Because Iām bad when it comes to hide my feelings.
Remember when I was thinking whether I should go back to Kajang (so I have a bigger space to do my business)? I think I have the answer now. I akan balik ke Kajang and my dad stay dekat Seremban. So my dad donāt have to worry so much about me.
I want him to feel free to know someone new. Of course Iāll come back to Seremban once in a while. But maybe not always. This is the best way I could think of.
To anyone that knows my dad, I appreciate that this thread tak sampai ke my dad. I just wanna write this down. And I just hope that some of you can understand that Iām struggling too.
For some people, nak bercerita about their parents yang dah bercerai can be quite sensitive. Tapi pada I, Iām totally okay talking about it. Because I know itās for the best. And only us, the kids, tahu apa yang betul-betul terjadi.
Thank you for reading. Have a great day
