It was late one night.

I was driving home alone.

From where?

I can’t remember.

Here’s what I do remember about that night:

Complete

And utter

Despair.

Hopelessness.

I was numb to everything.

And I didn’t even know why.

I could not place my finger on it

I’d given up trying to figure it out.

Countless nights spent crying

Asking God, “Why?”

Why am I like this?

Why do I hate my life?

Why is everything around me the best it’s been in a long time

And yet I think “I want to die” countless times, every single day?

And that night

I came

THIS

Close...

I was driving straight for a curve with a steep drop over the edge

And at the last possible moment

I corrected the wheel.

Something stopped me.

And I drove home.

Things didn’t get better that night.

But something did change.

I came to edge of death

Suicidal as hell

And chose to live.

I am so glad that I did.

Because I remembered what I had forgotten for a long time

I have a purpose.

I am here for a reason.

I am no mere accident...

And friend,

Neither are you.

September is suicide prevention month.

I am sharing my story tonight because I just want each and every person that reads this to know:

Life is worth living.

Even when it sucks

It’s still worth living.

I know life can be painful

It can be so, so painful.

I understand what it’s like to wake up and hurt inside.

But life is still worth living.

If you EVER need someone to talk to

My DMs are open.

But either way please know this:

You matter.

You have purpose.

You are loved.

There are people who care about you.

There are people who would miss you.

NO ONE’s life would be improved by your absence.

So live.

Live today

For yourself
For others
For those you love
For those who love you.

Suicide is never the answer.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:

1-800-273-8255