Thread by @__iujing, Just wanna share the thoughts I've been having bcs I still feel [...]

Just wanna share the thoughts I& #39;ve been having bcs I still feel full from the love I& #39;ve been receiving.

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I don& #39;t know what did I do to deserve you all, srsly. I& #39;m a very soft person so even the little things you have said/done to me, already means a lot. A lot. Your kind words may seem plain to you, but you guys don& #39;t know how could those words helped me and my well-being.

I don& #39;t know how much "sam" is known here, I have no idea what kind of impression did I leave. But I think I could say that I only interacted with a few for the reason that I& #39;m a person who& #39;s bad at keeping people. I& #39;m bad at maintaining conversations. So I& #39;m sorry....

...For those ppl who felt like I already forgot them. I didn& #39;t forget anyone of you. It& #39;s just that I easily feel anxious whenever an overwhelming number of ppl surrounds me. Idk, even irl, I always have this fear of being surrounded by too many, idk what kind of problem is that

That& #39;s why I always keep on saying that I keep my circle small, bcs I fear that I couldn& #39;t take enough care of them, I fear that I couldn& #39;t check on them, I fear that I couldn& #39;t keep them, I fear that I would end up losing them---

Bcs I& #39;ve lost enough ppl. I don& #39;t wanna feel the same pain again. So ever since then, I became cautious of whom I give a seat on my table. And I thought there& #39;s nothing wrong with it. I was just trying to protect myself from potential heartbreaks--- not again.

I came here in stan twt more than a month ago. I just srsly made this for fun, I had no idea that people would notice me, approach me and befriend me. I was so, so overwhelmed and I felt all the excitement, and for a moment I became impulsive, I interacted here and there....

I made friends. And I thought things doesn& #39;t last in here. I thought it& #39;s hard to keep people you merely met online. I thought it was just temporary, bcs I met a lot of temporary ppl irl, what more if I just met them online? So I tried to be away for a moment...

I made reflections. I gave it a thought. I refrain myself from opening my stan acc and even group chats bcs I thought I need a break and I have to let everything sink in. That things are really happening, that I& #39;m really getting closer and closer with this ppl, that I& #39;m feeling++

That feeling again. That fear.

So I came back. Some ppl really noticed my disappearance, some did not. Some even checked on me on tg & ig (u know who u are) And I realized and told myself, "ugh, I can& #39;t lose these ppl. I& #39;m here again. I& #39;m at it again. What should i do..."

Days have passed. I got used to these ppl& #39;s presence. I easily get attached. You can easily hurt me and you won& #39;t even notice it bcs I& #39;ll just laugh it out. I am a weakling. And I always feel defeated everytime I let a person hurt me. I just couldn& #39;t help it but let them do it...

But I slowly saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I think I was able to overcome it. Not alone, but with the help of these ppl who didn& #39;t forget me. They may never noticed it, but behind all my goofiness, is a grateful person who wishes and tries to be good as much as she can.

Thank you. Thank you for those who randomly sends their "good morning, kain ka na, ingat ka..." messages to me. It means a lot. Thank you for those who listened to me. From my rants up to my deepest family and love stories. Srsly, thank you. U know who u are.

Thank you for the random compliments. Thank you for letting me hear words I haven& #39;t heard all my life. Thank you for making me laugh out loud until late at night. Thank you for reminding me that things will always be alright. You maybe not telling it directly but that& #39;s just ++

How you all make me feel like. Thank you for my ate& #39;s, u know who u are, you& #39;ll always have a special place in my heart. Thank you for making me feel what having an older sister feels like. Thank you for checking on me bcs it meant A LOT.

As well as my younger sisters. I may be years older than you but I swear, I& #39;m learning a lot from you. I may not be able to show it but I do. Thank you for acting up like a grown up around me when I myself can& #39;t. Thank you for being my ate when I fail to be one.

I will always remember everyone. I still can& #39;t believe that a simple "hi I& #39;m a baby uaena, am I welcome here?" will lead me to where I am today. Thank you for helping me heal from everything. Endless thank you for everyone. You& #39;re helping me in ways you never knew.

And to that one person who helped me a lot and doesn& #39;t get tired of me, thank you! I& #39;ve said everything last night, u know who u are.

In times like this, it& #39;s really important to be good to everyone. Tomorrow is never promised. Just be good. It& #39;s free.

Bcs you never know how much a person is going through. She may be just laughing everything around, but those laughs are just only her escape from the stressful reality. Again, thank you so much for letting a "sam" into your life. Hoping to meet you all soon. Mahal ko kayo, sobra.

This is my first time doint this, sorry na sa drama ay

https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen"> This is my appreciation post for y& #39;all, I ain& #39;t mentioning anyone but if you feel like you& #39;re one of the ppl I& #39;m talking about, then you are

https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit lächelnden Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit lächelnden Augen">

Thank you IU for bringing people together!

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