anyway the more my miserable cyberstalkers keep trying to harm me my luck gets better & people support me more which i know KILLS them. very grateful for recent blessings: i got an arists grant, several more teaching gigs, a dreamy ghostwriting opp, & more contest jurying

i’ve also made tons of new friends—several are people my stalkers tried to contact to get them to hate me (the playground patheticness of these desperate white women) & instead they sent me their messages & we had a laugh

i believe in concepts of karma esp Persian versions & I also feel very protected by my grandmothers & other women ancestors. I’ve been in my line of work for ages—first article published in 1997, first book 2007. Too many people know me too well—I have that privilege.

My Sufi grandma was from a small village in Garakan. She was a single mom of many many kids (several died), including one of my aunts who had Down Syndrome & still lived a fairly long life. Her life was so hard but in her final years all she ever said was “I love you” & laugh

So I try very hard to channel their energy & laugh at my haters & even try to love on them! life is very short—miserable people hopefully can transcend their misery too one day

Try—ALL OF YOU even the creepy white ladies obsessed with any WOC they perceive as successful—to truly do good these days! The world is in massive crisis on so many levels. Channel your energy into helping others—it helps you feel good too

I spent over 3 hours last night giving an old gifted student of mine—a brilliant WOC who has gone through a very tough year—writing advice & helping her figure out a proposal & agents. Seeing her thrive fills me with joy & tells me there may be hope in this brutal bigoted world

I had amazing mentors who helped me & given that crowdfunding saved my life i do this work for free often to pay it forward. I encourage you all to help others whenever you can these days—it truly reminds you of what matters & helps you help yourself too

And find love in those who know you best. I have the same best friend I did since I was 6, my mentors Danzy Senna & Victoria Redel have known me for over 20 years & are there for me all the time (I work hard to be there for them). We are in constant touch & they feel like family.

Lockdown has too many peoole isolated & I can see mental illnesses getting really bad for many—my OCD & C-PTSD started flaring in horrifying ways these past months & I had to get help several times. Do not be afraid to reach out, get help, entitle yourself to love & care

I truly believe if white people could love themselves more they would stop harming us. I mean REAL love not white supremacy. The self hate & guilt tied to white identity given their harmful ancestors has created its own monster—they fear we will do them what they did to us.

I still remember a racist troll from the UK telling me I hated him because of what happened with Mossadegh & 1953 in Iran. If you could only hav heard my dry lol there.

anyway clearing the TL energies of those addicted to harming others—try to have a good day whoever you are, whatever you are about