fictyun's short guide to angst as told through a series of goodbyes: a thread

The room is silent, save for the soft huff of their breathing. Their chests rise and fall in sync as they both turn to face each other.

"I don't want to say goodbye so I'll just say goodnight."

"Alright then," Beomgyu whispers. "Goodnight."

And just like that, Taehyun is gone.

"I'm sorry." Soobin supplies.

"Don't be." Yeonjun reassures, "You're happier with him, aren't you?" There's a pinch in his chest as he sees the faint glimmer of joy behind the latter's eyes.

Soobin nods.

"Then that's all that matters." Yj replies, "I'll manage, don't worry."

Beomgyu sniffs. He runs a hand across his cheek and feels the quickly drying tear tracks that have rolled down his face.

"If we never see each other again," He starts, "Will our secrets remain ours?"

A sad smile forms on yj's features. "Always."

And with that, he walks away.

"I'll be honest," Beomgyu starts, "I'll be jealous of whoever ends up with you."

Yeonjun chuckles, nodding his head. He lets the silence consume them for a moment as he mulls over his thoughts.

"I wanted that person to be you." He says, "But I guess we don't choose who stays."

"Thank you." Soobin mouths through the noise. How wonderous it is that his first words spoken to Yeonjun would mirror the last.

Yeonjun turns to look at him, a bright smile of his face. "We'll find each other again, won't we?"

"In another lifetime, I'm sure of it."

"Hyun," Beomgyu whispers weakly, "Can I go to sleep forever without you crying over me?"

Taehyun wipes away a tear from his face. He tries to smile, though it falters. "It's ok, hyung, you can rest now."

Beomgyu smiles one last time before closing his eyes.

"Rest well, love."