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Alright I& #39;m gonna head off for real, but before I do I have to bring this up as its been bothering me for a while.
For those who know me you all know I tend to be very abrasive. Crass, rude, etc. I feel like I& #39;ve checked a box in any of these categories before.
For those who know me you all know I tend to be very abrasive. Crass, rude, etc. I feel like I& #39;ve checked a box in any of these categories before.
I tend to act antagonistic towards others sometimes because I have issues controlling my emotions. I let them get the best of me and end up acting like an asshole. A lot of my friends can attest me to this. Even in some recent tweets I jump the gun hardcore.
But this goes beyond online interactions. Honestly I& #39;ve been thinking about bullying a lot and was always afraid of it, but I never really took a look at myself to see if I& #39;ve been a bully before. I always had issues with succumbing to peer pressure. I remember that I was a...
...jerk to some 1st grader when I was i think in either 3rd or 4th grade (not 100% sure) since everyone else found him annoying yet I would hang out with him sometimes. I don& #39;t think it ended badly between us but it still rubs me the wrong way even today.
Same thing happened when I was in middle/high school. There was this one classmate that looking back might& #39;ve had some form of autism (idk if he did). He reminded me a bit of myself in that regard. I felt my relationship (not romantic) was pretty two-faced on my part.
Everyone would relay insults at him and sometimes I would too. When nearing the end of high school everyone would eventually stop picking on him and start to respect him a bit more, but I just can& #39;t imagine that experience of being heralded insults every waking second of the day.
I& #39;m sure he& #39;s doing well for himself and think he has the potential of being really smart, even if he might& #39;ve been silly. Good natured person at the end of the day.
As for online I& #39;ve talked behind a lot of people& #39;s backs, teasing crushes, getting mad at me getting teased making me a huge hypocrite, etc. Overall I feel like there& #39;s been so much bullshit I& #39;ve done in my life that I needed to air this out.
People need to know that I wasn& #39;t always the nicest person around and even today still struggle with coming to terms with that. There& #39;s a lot of people I know that I vaguely mention here because I either don& #39;t know how to contact them or because I HATE confrontation.
Massive anxiety comes from that. So please if you were ever wronged by me to whoever is out there, call me out. My DMs are open along with this thread. I don& #39;t know how much reach this would get but I feel having a longtime presence here would need me to speak about myself.
