i've had really intense anxiety these past two months (the whole year really) that i haven't been able to concentrate on much, especially not any of the things i usually love. haven't blogged, barely read. i'm starting to feel myself slowly coming out of it now.

it's weird how noticeably different i feel but it also scares me because i didn't even notice how badly i was feeling until i started feeling better. my brain kinda shut down a little & all i've done is re-watch TV shows. but i guess it's what i've needed.

that's the thing about anxiety. it can manifest in totally different ways than what you're used to. for as much progress as i've made over the years, it scares me just how little control i can have over it at times & this year, especially, has been one long anxiety rollercoaster!