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Sometimes i envy people who are able to get what they want easily, whereas i had to work an extra mile for it.
For example, phones, isn't it funny how a friend of mine and my own cousin have changed phones like 3 times in 3 years? Yo for me to even get this phone, i had to score an average of 90 in my UN SMP, which thankfully i got 89.9 and my parents pardoned the 0.1 difference
And magically when my friend and my cousin had their phones changed per year, for over 3 years i have the same phone right now. Not to brag about how they got new phones per year or how i scored good in the UN.
It's just how I had to bear the pain of working & waiting for a new phone, imagine studying so damn hard and had to wait for the results just to get a damn phone. My previous phone was iphone 4 btw which is huge pain in my butt
Back to present, I made another deal just to get a new laptop, just my personal laptop not my dad's(I've been using dad's up until now).
I miraculously averaged 90 on my US(coz corona) and achieved highest score in sciencr stream and i showed both to them.
I miraculously averaged 90 on my US(coz corona) and achieved highest score in sciencr stream and i showed both to them.
They did not agree with me averaging 90 and achieving top scorer. They said it had to be easy because the test came from our school teacher, yes it is easy but 13 subjects, hello? Compared to UN 4 subjects??????
They said to score good in my A-level mathematics test, which i did it again and I didn't even see any signs that they'll get me a new laptop, they just said "ok", this was 2 months ago. Btw grammar correction previous thread "it was easy.."
I hate how like, I was raised as if "I need to study hard in order to succeed" in their point of view. I know that deep inside them, they don't want me to be addicted to games, because i'll become a failure if i did that, in their eyes : game = toxic
It's because a relative of my father dropped out of primary school because bad pergaulan and poop, and my father's relative spent his early life just playing, and yeah u know what happened next.
Btw i think i did not point this out previously, but i want a laptop to play games lol, although it might be useful to have a better one for 2nd semester during uni :)
Anyways, my dad is not a fan of games because of that. And i know for sure they're stalling from buying a laptop to observe if it is good or not to buy me one(i've been playing a lot) coz they don't want me to be a failure
Maybe it's easy for u to say that i should look things on the bright side, i studied hard, i made myself knowledgeable, it's a sign that ur parents cared for u, etc. But no.
I personally never see every school subjects as something important for my future, only certain subjects that are necessary for my interest. I work hard to keep my scores balanced, in order for my parents to still have faith in me.
Because basically yeah, they believe in my capability = me getting what i want and living a happy life. So having them making semi-false promises is so frustrating. This is not the only time they did this.
But that's for another tweet regarding cancelling my study to japan and it involves a very good debatable topic
If you're at the end of this thread, thank you for reading a short story of mine :) i tweeted this not to brag about my achievements but to show that i've been standing along with top school fellows to fulfill what i want, not to ensure my future.
