Today I am thinking about my relationship as an afab non-binary person to “women-only” spaces.
Since coming out, changing my name to something more masculine, and describing myself as transmasc, I’ve been invited to these spaces MORE often, not less.
Since coming out, changing my name to something more masculine, and describing myself as transmasc, I’ve been invited to these spaces MORE often, not less.
Facebook Groups entitled “Ladies of [Hobby]” that specify, in the description, that it’s just a name and “non-binary people, or anyone who is a feminist, are included too.”
but people always start their posts with some variation of “hey ladies!”
but people always start their posts with some variation of “hey ladies!”
“Leon, join our girls’ game night!” A friend will say. I look at them funny; that’s a contradiction. “Oh, I meant, no boys allowed.” Still not quite right.
On one hand, I have a lot in common with most people in these spaces, so I see why I get invited. I have similar perspectives, I was socialized similarly, and my body works like that of a cis woman’s.
These are facets of my non-binary identity, though, not a mark of womanhood.
These are facets of my non-binary identity, though, not a mark of womanhood.
To elaborate, my non-binary identity includes the ways in which I might be similar to a cis woman; it doesn’t exist in spite of or at odds with that.
But these spaces still don’t feel right. I am a feminist, but I’m not a lady, and I really don’t like being called one.
But these spaces still don’t feel right. I am a feminist, but I’m not a lady, and I really don’t like being called one.
[I won’t even touch how exhausting these “women and non-binary” groups must be for amab nbi people and trans women, but it’s a thing you can find plenty of threads on from people who can speak to that]
I appreciate being invited to things, always! But being invited is not enough to make me feel included. If I’m gonna spend time with cis people, I don’t want my gender to be the reason why. Because it’s more complicated than what your Facebook group title will allow.
I feel like I’ve always got to perform femininity in these groups. I can’t just be myself, or I’ll get weird looks or questions about my gender that are difficult and awkward to explain.
I wish I had a solution for how to change the language of these groups to make me, personally, feel more included. I don’t think there is one. So, I guess, I appreciate the invitation, but I’m probably gonna turn it down! Don’t be upset!