Thread by @Glory2MaoZedong, feeling dysphoric lately might just be a guy after all first time [...]

feeling dysphoric lately might just be a guy after all

first time i& #39;ve ever said "i feel dysphoric" but idk i& #39;ve been thinking about being a trans guy too much to call it just a silly little thought idk if i& #39;ll do it doe

on that topic i think the same reason i dont wanna fully go trans guy besides my own unwillingness to change stuff in my life is just like the sexual aspect of it all that& #39;ll be forced onto me
i& #39;m still, i guess, considered a ""tomboy"" and with that always being fetishized and

sexualized i already feel disgusted with myself, but if i were to be a guy in this hypothetical situation i& #39;d just be a """twink""" (even more disgusting if i think of it) i don& #39;t know how to get over this im disgusted with sex i hate this im cursed

ok enough being genuine who here likes big chungus

never mind fuck you i feel like being a human
i utterly despise the prospect of anything i like immediately being fucked up by the inevitability of it being sexualized
i can& #39;t even enjoy female characters anymore because i know eventually, inevitably, i& #39;m gonna see porn of them

if i follow an artist it& #39;ll inevitably end in them drawing porn or inevitably drawing some gay & #39;lewd& #39; ( I HATE THIS WORD BTW ) so i just mute every artist i see unless they draw something i really like
i wanna avoid porn at every chance i fucking get. it& #39;s so disgusting

i will admit i over react way too fucking much but i& #39;ll also admit pornography or sexualization is a genuine trigger for me i don& #39;t care if it& #39;s considered "le epic sjw word" it triggers me, it makes me wish i wasn& #39;t porn with a cunt and it makes me wish i wasn& #39;t even born

so i burst out in anger and it ends up fucking me over, as much as i wish i could stop myself i guess my brain is absolute mush and i get needlessly mad at shit that someone else& #39;d consider harmless hentai. it& #39;s still fucking annoying though. at least go on a private account.

there& #39;s no excuse if you Do have a private account but act horny on your main
please take the people you (((supposedly))) care about into consideration. please
i wish i was normal i really wish i do. if i could just edit out this hatred for sex and porn outta me i would

but i guess my brain fucking sucks and hates horniness and sexuality in a Society that loves it . whateva i dont know why im even venting right now it& #39;s not like anyone cares.

better than bottling it all up and then lashing out when i& #39;ve eventually had enough, i guess.

in conclusion if i ever do start identifying as he/him if any of you even dare call me a "femboy" i will block you on sight i don& #39;t care how long we& #39;ve been friends for i won& #39;t allow that to happen.

i& #39;ll just use this thread to vent about what& #39;s on my mind i guess

i do enjoy being told that "a lot of people hate me" time really is a flat circle, even in my childhood house my own family despised me, everyone in school despised me, the one time i had a girlfriend she as well

despised me, maybe i truly am just a hateable person. noone& #39;s fault but my own i guess. though i don& #39;t mind being hated by the bitch ass smug legend typa fold, i at least care about my perception of those who& #39;re friends of friends. at least i guess i should.

my public perception is awful. as it probably should be with all the purposeful shit-stirring. i don& #39;t know how i& #39;d correct that, though.

okay now everyone knows too much personal information about myself time to kill you all off blah blah i drink coffee now i crazy

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