Hey all. I just wanted to thank you all who reached out today with your support. I know that you all have lives just as fraught and difficult as I do, so I know how draining it can be just to see someone else& #39;s daily struggle on your feed.
In the past I& #39;ve tried not to share bad news like I did today with Momo& #39;s death. I don& #39;t want to take up anyone& #39;s mental space with my own troubles. Even today, I posted more out of love for my baby& #39;s memory than to seek personal support. She deserves to be loved, remembered.
She was an unbelievable joy in a time where universally, things feel grim. She left a hole in my heart that will never be filled. No kitten should die at 4 months old.
But this thread is about you, my friends. Thank you for your messages of support. Even those of you who left a simple like on the post, I saw that. Pets are by their nature ephemeral players in our lives. They come and go too soon, no matter how long you have them.
I& #39;m really, truly thankful for the love you guys have sent my way. It& #39;s been a hard year for everyone, and honestly I was in pretty deep despair earlier today. I& #39;m not a religious person but I still found myself asking why. Why her? She was so perfect, so young. She was so good.
Those questions have no answers, and i knew that even as I cried to the empty cat carrier she should have occupied. I knew that as I held Max, as he nuzzled me without knowing why I was crying uncontrollably.
I don& #39;t usually get anything from messages of sympathy. Honestly? I didn& #39;t read most of your messages. I couldn& #39;t bear to see you share my grief because mine was already too much to handle.
That was not a concept I realized before today.
I always imagined myself overly cynical, that I was unaffected by sympathy because it did nothing to ameliorate my own heartbreak. Today I realized that I can& #39;t stand sympathy because it feels like my grief is compounded, that I& #39;ve injected sadness into the lives of others.
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