I miss being able to doodle a sketch for 2 seconds everyday like I used to. I want to be motivated to do art like I used to but I can't anymore. I'm at like -10 out of 100 on motivation rn. I wan't to get back to drawing things I love, and commissions but I can't. Idk what to do.

I barely have anytime during work to even sketch for a few seconds. And when I do get days off, I just stare off into space waiting for my body to do something and it aggravates me. I've tried to forced myself to draw recently but my body rejects it so hard.

Like, I'm really trying not to let my depression get in the way of my work life and art life but it all feels like I'm pushing myself to work and I sacrifice my motivation for that instead of art. I can't do both and its frustrating. I wish I can doodle at work.

My job is so pulling physically that I truly just can't make time for it. I truly wish there was a way to balance both. How do people get their motivation back? It's been a whole year of me being in a constant art block. Some days are worse than others.

I also want to get back to interacting with everyone in the art community. Idk I can just feel myself isolating again and slowly disappearing from all things I love and I just want to get back to that feeling of feeling productive and okay while also socializing.

Sorry for the baby rant lol. I feel like this is more about art so I didn't post this on main. I just need some advice tbh.

Another note: I think I truly just need to switch mediums for a while to reset my creative thinking. OR maybe I should start writing instead like I used to. Idk. I just need something FRESH. I kinda want to get back to streaming my art but it gets mighty lonely. Idk. Big thonk