everytime i read a mismatched fic i feel like i'm getting bonked over the head and dragged over a cliff

i read fifteen hours while drinking a glass of wine and thats when i realized i should probably stop drinking wine and reading ao3

GRITTING MY TEETH PAINFULLLLLLLLY

my dad just asked me what i was doing because i was sitting my head in my hands how do i explain that i'm doing the mental equivalent of being tossed around in a washing machine

HEAD IN MY FUCKING HANDS I CANTOTTOAONAOGAONO

OH MY GOD ALL THE BLOOD RUSHED OUT OF MY HEAD MY EARS ARE BUZZING IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED SUCH A VISCERAL REACTION TO A FIC BEFORE GOODBYE

I CANT TAKE KIT KLADJSGNDFKJNKJSD

this is quickly turning into a livereading thread but. what else can i do except go fucking insane tonight i feel like i'm choking on honey right now i cant explain the feeling in my throat but it's thick and bears heavily down on my lungs i am RUINED

i am peacefully taking off my glasses. what i cant fucking read cant fucking hurt me. i love having 500+ astigmatism. this is my saving grace. i am blind as a cow and living like one. I LOVE LIFE.

do you think if i stare long enough into my ceiling light i will be blinded and thus unable to continue reading

my dad: seriously what is wrong with you
me, spread out across the floor: everything

just read more tweets about people being PAINED by the things that and i jsut think. i just think we should form a support community. also i hope this is in the very least entertaining