i& #39;ve noticed i keep trying to get active in more and more places lately. feeling pretty good about that but i& #39;m worried that it will all come down somehow. i& #39;ve been meeting and making friends with all these people. what am i working towards? when will it be enough for me?

where is this desire to be a part of something coming from?

i used to strongly believe i could only handle being active in 2 discords at once. now that i& #39;m juggling 4 i& #39;ve realized my lack of activity comes from just not being invested enough.

maybe it& #39;s that i feel like i& #39;m missing out. i chase more as if it& #39;ll fix anything instead of working with what i have.

all of this is about main and not here btw

my sudden desire to merge could be that too. this can& #39;t be right.

going to bed now. shoutout to all 0.5 people who read this thread