i've noticed i keep trying to get active in more and more places lately. feeling pretty good about that but i'm worried that it will all come down somehow. i've been meeting and making friends with all these people. what am i working towards? when will it be enough for me?

where is this desire to be a part of something coming from?

i used to strongly believe i could only handle being active in 2 discords at once. now that i'm juggling 4 i've realized my lack of activity comes from just not being invested enough.

maybe it's that i feel like i'm missing out. i chase more as if it'll fix anything instead of working with what i have.

all of this is about main and not here btw

my sudden desire to merge could be that too. this can't be right.

going to bed now. shoutout to all 0.5 people who read this thread