// vent , kokichi oma

rant thread time -- here's me ranting abt why i dont like myself and how I cope with it.

// vent , kokichi oma

so, i don't. have it in my kinlist but yes,, i do kin kokichi. he's one of my kins. but theres a specific reason he isnt listed. because he isnt a comfort character. i only relate to kokichi through bad ways- the things i dislike about myself is--

// vent , kokichi oma

--represented through kokichi, as i see those things in him as well. that's why kokichi isn't a comfort character. i still love kokichi's character, but a lot of him reminds me of what I don't like about myself.--

// vent , kokichi oma

--Multiple people compare me to Kokichi or, just outright call me by the name Kokichi. This... makes me really uncomfortable. Being called "kokichi" or being called a "kokichi kinnie", to me, is basically saying "hey, you're being an asshole, stop that"--

--since the only way i relate to Kokichi is through negative aspects and personality traits. So being called Kokichi isn't a funny haha to me- it's an insult. I kin Kokichi mainly as a way to cope. I kin him to basically be aware of my problems and come to terms with them, and--

// vent , kokichi oma

--stop them. Think of it like this; it's good to acknowledge your problems, but it would hurt you if someone else just suddenly brought up the things that are bad about you. To me, that's exactly how it feels. I feel like people are just bringing up the--

// vent , kokichi oma

--bad parts about me for no reason whatsoever. As a joke. And it hurts. A lot.

TL;DR: I kin Kokichi as a way to accept my problems; But when people bring this up to me, it feels like an insult.