I have this ongoing longing in my head to be a 'movement voice' - an adept speaker, witty, put me on a panel and I will shine with
takes. it's so WEIRD

I don't actually want this, to be clear!! I would hate people looking to me to shape their opinions: I am a charlatan who makes up for a lack of knowledge with a friendly enthusiastic exterior. but it's constantly surprising to me how much of a romantic pull this role has
I just love external validation lol. shout out to all other background people!
(this genuinely isn't a dig for validation btw!)
(I am very bad at panels! I have many skills, I like to think, but rousing speeches is so far from being one of them)