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didnt think i& #39;d need to write a thread on this but i need to talk about the johnbob stuff. some people on discord know how i feel right now but i haven& #39;t said much here, so to clear up the issue of how i feel:
didnt think i& #39;d need to write a thread on this but i need to talk about the johnbob stuff. some people on discord know how i feel right now but i haven& #39;t said much here, so to clear up the issue of how i feel:
I AM INFURIATED WITH JOHNBOB.
I don& #39;t care that he& #39;s 19 and hasnt done this shit as a greasy fucked up 30-something, i am fucking angry at him for grooming people, for grooming KIDS. most people would just get mad at that, but
I don& #39;t care that he& #39;s 19 and hasnt done this shit as a greasy fucked up 30-something, i am fucking angry at him for grooming people, for grooming KIDS. most people would just get mad at that, but
i& #39;m more pissed than most people are about this, and grooming in general. and the reason for that& #39;s because
I was a grooming victim myself. I& #39;ve been through this -personally.-
Maybe not in the same ways as these kids, but i was still a victim.
I was a grooming victim myself. I& #39;ve been through this -personally.-
Maybe not in the same ways as these kids, but i was still a victim.
Some people probably already know this but today marks the first time i have EVER publicly confessed to being a victim. I didn& #39;t even really see myself as one myself; I knew i was groomed, but i never really thought about it too much, or
how much danger i was in and i never really thought it was proper sexual abuse because i wasn& #39;t made to take nudes or molested, but i don& #39;t think what happened counts as anything else. I don& #39;t know what else it could Be. You& #39;re about to learn how it affects kids.
It happened in group chat, and I already knew some of the people in it, and we used to be on Skype and we were all roughly around the same age, and I met my first boyfriend there. When we moved to discord, new people came into the picture.
I don& #39;t know how old the newer people were but i think one of them was 18-20 (young adult but still an adult) and one of them i wasn& #39;t even sure, they said they were 14 but their dA stayed at 14 a long as hell time, and they had an nsfw blog that iirc was popular.
Anyone was allowed to just look at the NSFW channel and post their drawings there which might be one thing if it& #39;s a small group of minors only sharing it between themselves but this group had like, adults. We entered the channels at our leisure, posting whenever.
Being in a lil server where at least one adult could send young teens between the ages of 13 and 15 nsfw was already incredibly wrong but the general channel tended to have people openly discussing kinks and fetishes and we joked about them, whatever. Adult(s) included.
Also as embarrassed as i am to admit it, yes, i looked in the nsfw channel. And yes, i did post some stuff there, stuff I drew myself. And people enjoyed them, and the adults got to see them. I was proud of them because they had effort put into them and looked pretty ok,
but now i think about them and where i sent them, and i cringe. And on top of that, I also shared pics other people drew, and we all saw ones sent by the adults in the chat and no one really brought up whether that was ok. we didn& #39;t question it; we were stupid young teens, who
were lonely, needed support, and were hormonal so we didn& #39;t really question it. I personally liked having a chat to come home to after my incredibly stressful tuesdays christian co-op school (where i had to hide several aspects about myself, including--
--my recently discovered homosexuality which i was terrified to reveal to anyone irl) and i liked being able to have a spot where i wasn& #39;t under religious pressure and i could listen to talk that wasn& #39;t basically "anyone who isnt christian needs to be fixed"
(i had not yet admitted that i have a more or less neutral stance on religion by that point or that i thought maybe forcing people to be your religion or otherwise be punished was fucked up)
I was looking and talking about stuff that i wasn& #39;t really old enough to know about but rly shouldn& #39;t have said w/ an adult present. so that went on for a while. Then they got creepier.
Everyone else started to get a bit more aggressive about their horniness, and iirc cracked jokes that weren& #39;t alright, idk remember all that was said but i think some pedo jokes were made. they became edgier and i think more sex-driven, if i remember right.
I think it was some time after this event, some time in december one year that my sister went through my pc while borrowing it, and she saw this chat. She told me i needed to cut ties with some of the people i knew on discord (i& #39;m certain she primarily meant this one chat)
and at the time, i didn& #39;t know she was trying to save me from going down a disgusting dismal path. I was at that age where you think you know what& #39;s good for you on absolutely everything, and i pretended to do so and went on w/ my life.
then, one guy who we knew was white or at least not black started using the N word-with an A in his messages. P sure it was the adult. the chat was, as i remember, pretty racially diverse but i think he got called out on it a few times but he kept using it which was--
--uncomfortable to watch. things kept getting worse. one day, we did a one-word story game about OK KO and while in hindsight it was kinda creepy to begin with (not due to my own word choices but due to the others& #39;, i mainly tried to keep it from worsening,)
the third chapter was when the others decided to de-rail it big time and write really uncomfortable shit that was written in a way that i couldn& #39;t really re-rail it and they thought it& #39;d be super funny to make it about pedo shit and incest :)
i tried to avoid furthering the details but i still regret ever having suggested doing a one word story, even if i didn& #39;t know it& #39;d turn into the ugly garbage pile it did. I didn& #39;t even really remember i did it until i started writing this thread.
In the group, people also started making jokes about -lolis- iirc and cub stuff DEFINITELY. While i think making jokes about the creeps into that stuff is fine (they deserve it,) they were making creepy jokes about the things themselves.
I didn& #39;t fully understand what some of these things were or why it was bad, but i didn& #39;t feel super comfortable reading them and i don& #39;t think i ever participated in cracking those jokes or talking about them. I think at some point people would occasionally--
--call each other "babyfur" as a nickname?? i remember seeing the phrase get used sometimes in convo which i thought was kinda creepy, and knowing the full connotations now, i find VERY creepy. But, i kept these feelings to myself, and let things get worse.
