I dont know if this is common amongst students of knowledge. But in the beginning i really began losing hope in what i was doing. I didnt go to Uni. I just studied in a Madrasah & didnt realise the benefits of it. I didnt really pay much attention at first. When id go home for -

- holidays, id see my mates getting good jobs, earning money. It really got me down.

This one brother from SA narrated 3 Ahadeeth to me when i told him i wasn't 'feeling it'. He narrated:

When i heard these narrations i was shocked. Literally, my reaction was 'these narrations exist?!' and it gave me so much hope. It pushed me to study properly and maybe take things a little more serious.

But as with most things the hype dies and it did. I went back to the same

- thoughts. The guy from SA would recite the same 3 Ahadeeth and said something which really hit me.

He narrates The Ahadeeth and says: 'Dont you see what Allah and His Messenger are telling you? Allah is ready to give to you, are you going to take it?' He continued -

He said: 'Allah is Raziq, if a rapist, murderer or prostitute; who attains a living through baatil, can have food on their table & a roof over their head. Do you think a person whose spending his youth in seeking Ulum will be left to starve by Allah? Do you have that little -

hope in Allah? Do you think that little of Him? I cried after he said that.

It bring the Hadith to mind
أنا عند ظن عبدي بي
"I am with my slave as he thinks of me"

I tell you that helped me so much. The way Allah has provided for me and allowed me to excel & achieve -

what i have right now is incredible. I cant explain how much Allah has done for me.

I honestly think its because of 4 things:
1) Most definitely Allahs mercy
2) My parents Duas
3) Patience for certain things i went through in life
4) Having hope & Tawakkul in Allah

Obviously, who i am now isnt the same person as the Omair in 2013. There was a lot of struggle & difficulties, but Allah still helped me through certain people.

I'm in debt to 6 people who i can never repay, these 6 were a means of all the Khayr in my life. My knowledge, nature, understanding, mindset, belief and guidance.

1) Mum - Who can replace what a mother does?

2) Dad - Who can replace what a father also does?

3) Principal of the institute i studied at - He accepted me & helped me

4) Principal's Son, my Hadith, Fiqh, Aqeedah & Usul Teacher - He pulled me out of the ghuluw -

i was falling into. He helped me gain a level of I'itidaal. He really helped me understand and mold a balanced mindset

5) A young scholar from Luton who was 2 years ahead of me - This guy gave tears, effort, money, time & food to ensure i didnt fall off. you could say -

- he was a means of saving me from becoming an Atheist

6) SA guy - Also a young scholar, one year ahead of me, he's the same as the luton guy above. He was a means of alot of khayr. massive amounts.
In my life, i have met no one like him.
I cant list how much he has helped me

Theres so much more to say. But all i want to say is dont lose hope in life. Turn to The Quran & Sunnah for guidance. This is what the above people used in helping me. Guidance only comes from Allah.
Till this day, Allah is helping me. Wallahi its incredible how Allah gives &

- gives. I feel ashamed knowing how much of a sinner i am, but Allah is helping me. I pray its not Istidraaj. Aameen.

All imma say now is take The Quran, Sunnah, The Salaf, The People of Quran & Sunnah as your guide and go forward, attain Allahs pleasure & make your Jannah!l

have total faith in Allah, complete faith. Allah's mercy & generosity is incomprehensible.

i didnt mean to make such a long thread but khayr.

Alhamdulillah for everything.