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It's come to my attention that A LOT OF YOU think I have my shit together and I'm living the good life. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just want to relate with you and show you my reality. I'm addressing this, cos quite a few of you look to my crazy ass for support lol
A THREAD
A THREAD
I suffer from EXTREME social anxiety and depression which I hide VERY well. I'm a germaphobe. I have a touch aversion (meaning I get repulsed when I am touched. Especially by human hair). Idk your spiritual beliefs, but mine? I get visited by spirits 24/7. I have a hard time /1
Keeping relationships. I have commitment issues. I am drowning in debt and am having the HARDEST time finding employment. I'm the oldest of a Polynesian family. I feel like I have the weight of our family name on my shoulders. I am constantly compared to other people /2
I am bullied on a regular basis, so my anxiety tells me that everyone is talking about me behind my back and being fake. Again I am in no way looking for sympathy. But I have a lot issues. I will prioritize my friends needs over mine even when I know it will not be /3
Reciprocated. I'm an empath. So when I'm surrounded by too many people, I get overwhelmed. When too many people are venting at once, I get overwhelmed (BUT THIS IS NOT ME SAYING STOP. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO CONTINUE VENTING. I WILL JUST TAKE LONGER TO RESPOND) I dealt with a /4
Crippling alcohol, sex, and drug addiction to cope with a lot of my pain.
Now that I'm done exposing what a POS I am lol. Let me tell you why I'm saying this.
I look like I have my shit together because I am a generally happy person that doesn't get outwardly bothered by /5
Now that I'm done exposing what a POS I am lol. Let me tell you why I'm saying this.
I look like I have my shit together because I am a generally happy person that doesn't get outwardly bothered by /5
Much. I have a wonderful family that supports me. Awesome friends that are there to uplift me. I may not have a life direction, but I know I have a purpose which is why I'm so passionate about others finding themselves. Because once I found "me" nothing mattered. /6
My worth was determined by me. And I'm not bringing anyone down who has not found this peace yet. What I'm saying is that I've worked hard to be where I am. So if my excitement for you and your achievement seems false, it's not. I am genuinely excited to see your success /7
My life is enriched by seeing others grow with me. Not by me growing alone. If I had the means to, I would donate every last penny I had to support others. (But I literally have 0.86 cents to my name rn lol)
So as much as I appreciate your love for me, please don't put me /8
So as much as I appreciate your love for me, please don't put me /8
On this pedestal that I don't deserve to be on. I love you all equally. Even when we have different opinions. But I'm human. My entrance into this world was a mistake. (I was an accident baby lol) But we made the best of it.
Anyyywwwaaayys. Text someone that's important to /9
Anyyywwwaaayys. Text someone that's important to /9
You and drink water. Lol. Oh and shower. And wash your legs. And brush your teeth. And don't fall asleep with your makeup on.
