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ignore this,, just venting
this thread is basically just,, long distance is really hard and i really miss my wife
ok here we go
i feel terrible because i was careless and my gfs mum ended up finding out about us and started monitoring her messages like crazy
she also had both amino and discord taken away 10 days ago and i miss her like crazy. i haven’t been able to message her since for that reason
i still feel like it’s mainly my fault this all happened even though she told me otherwise
i miss playing minecraft with her and making up dumb scenarios with our ocs and planning out dates we’d have if we ever got to see eachother
but i wouldn’t be able to do that anyway regardless of if i could still message her, because her mum would read every message anyway and i’ve been told to avoid any sorts of romantic subjects or anything to do with sexuality.
so basically i’m putting all my feelings here so i can send this to her later once she hopefully gets her messages back, just so she can see that i wasn’t forgetting about her. plus i don’t exactly want her mum to see and of this
we’ve been together for almost 4 months and too much of that time has been with her mum looking over our shoulders
this sucks so much, i just want everything to go back to normal but i completely understand why this all happened which somehow makes it even worse because it could’ve been avoided
her mum would obviously be concerned finding her daughter dating some random girl on the internet, and i feel like if i hadn’t accepted her confession and we’d just stayed friends then her messages wouldn’t have been taken away and she wouldn’t be grounded
the bad thing is that i don’t regret any of it, it was amazing having my crush confess to me. but i still feel bad because without her messages she can’t even talk to any of her other friends either, this hasn’t just affected our relationship but her friendships too
i know she’s back at school right now, which is good because atleast she can talk to her friends there, but im still worried because i don’t want her to fall into a bad place mentally, i don’t know if she has someone to talk to about important things and -
- that’s makes me anxious. taking away a kids means of communication never does anything good for their mental health
i’m worried about her and i miss her so much, i feel horrible that things turned out like this and even worse that its partly my fault
i’ll still wait for her though, even if it takes months for her to be able to message me again, she’s the first person i’ve been able to connect with like this and i don’t want to give that up.
that’s all, i’ve already talked about most of this with her over a week ago, but it’s been building up a bit more and i needed to let most of it out, i doubt anyone has read down this far, but if you have uhh hi, -
- i hope you had fun reading about my relationship difficulties
