If i look into a recent past,i can vividly remember the time when my heart was at peace.I was contended with my life even though i had nothing in my hand.But if i see now,i may have a lot but the happiness is lost. Like virginity,once happiness is lost,it's an unrecoverable loss.

A constant worry has seized my head. Worry of future,worry of present,worry of my hair turning grey and my bones aching when i have accomplished nothing much till now. I want to catch the end of rope to hold onto and try again but i can't seem to find it anymore.

We make certain standards the only reason to survive. For some it's money and for some it's their empires. And for some it's the pursuit of happiness they've lost in their process of growing up. And this quest never ends as the fumes once lost in air are nowhere to be found.

How many of us are forced to live like a breathing corpse. We have a job we don't like. We get diabetes due to stress. We listen to the taunts of our bosses to earn a few bucks which don't even make both ends meet for us. We travel hours a day to sacrifice our happiness more.

How many of us are living in homes we don't want to live at. The walls tend to suffocate us. We want to breathe but the air stifles us more. We yearn to live among mountains but when we finally reach there,we realise it was not what we wanted.

How many of us are stuck in the curriculums we never wanted to choose. Fumbling pages after pages,emptying pens after pens.. all this hardwork to land into more despair in professional life. How many of us have sacrificed their homes,families,pets to live in a foreign land.

All such sacrifices are made to earn that money which doesn't bring any happiness at the end as the most of it is already gone in bills and stuff etc. You work your ass off day and night and can't afford to go to Bali after years of hardwork.. is this happiness you chased?