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my random thread of reminders as to why i’m trying to recover
1. i GENUINELY miss my chubby cheeks i know some of yall hate them but i do b missing mine and i looked so alive in the old photos compared to photos of my face now
2. to keep my family happy bc it hurts me seeing my mum so upset :(
3. this one im honestly being completely serious about i miss my b o o b s lmao
4. being able to go out with friends again and not freak out about calories or food BUT ENJOY MY TIME WITH THEM
5. bc i actually wanna smile and be as happy as possible again 
6. having space in my head to think about something other than food. Being able to focus on and improve my other hobbies and work etc
8. BAKING AND BEING ABLE TO COOK AGAIN without freaking out bc i don’t know the exact calories in what i’ve made eg. my homemade pesto pasta
9. the physical symptoms of starvation are NOT IT
10. so i can go back to uni and study for a degree which i actually love around ppl i actually love
11. to make my friends and family proud but ultimately to make myself proud
12. having ENERGY and not being tired literally 24/7
13. bc i miss not constantly comparing myself to EVERYONE ELSE and body checking every single time i pass something reflective etc
14. beach bbqs without feeling incredibly guilty or avoiding food or fasting for days before etc
15. bc i’m fully aware as long as i’m stuck in this disorder no matter how low my weight drops i’m never gonna be happy
