tw // selfharm , mention of weight gain and loss

hey ,, i rlly hope this tweet gets to at least someone but these few days i& #39;ve just been feeling kinda.. off? im not really sad but im not happy at the same time ? -

-and like everyday i feel insecure, like im either too fat or too skinny or my body just feels and looks weird. everyday i either force myself and tell myself to lose weight or gain weight, and like it just frustrates me because some days i feel like im too fat and other days-

i feel too skinny. one of my irls who i was rlly close to started selfharming and she made a new acc and joined s//lfh/rmtwt using her number, i used my number to make my priv acc and it showed up in my notifs that my contact joined twt and i was curious so i & #39;stalked& #39; the acc ??

i saw the s//htwt tag and i didn& #39;t know what it is so i clicked on it and well,, saw lots and lots of pictures of c*ts and they just brought me back really bad memories. i used to sh when i was slightly younger ( around like 11 ? ) and i stopped cause it was becoming a trend-

and since these few days i& #39;ve been feeling bad those picture just made me feel like starting again but at the same time i really really dont want to, i hope at least someone understands https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😖" title="Verblüfftes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Verblüfftes Gesicht"> but what im trying to say here is, im asking for attention, i know it sounds bad and it-

probably is, but im asking for attention, i want maybe just even at least one person to tell me that everything is gonna be fine, that im okay just the way i am and maybe just maybe it& #39;ll make me feel better, please all im asking for is just these few words. if you see this-

and dont like what i& #39;ve said in this thread plspls just kindly block me ? i& #39;ve just had enough at this point honestly i dont mind if i get cancelled or smth from this

im sorry if you read all of this its so long https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😐" title="Neutrales Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Neutrales Gesicht">