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deleted a bunch of tweets b4 going public, im such an asshole and it feels like every bit of effort i& #39;ve put in to try and be better was worthless. cool!
honestly, do i care? nah, im just up to see just how far i can go before i snap for good lol
I hate thinking about all the people that i& #39;ve hurt because of my shitty ass mistakes in literally every choice i& #39;ve done, im so tired of this and it never seems to change or even seem to look better at least, yikes
literally all the help that i have received so far makes me feel even worse because the people that did try ended up feeling like shit because they didn& #39;t know how to talk to me anymore and the people that are trying rn feel like im actually becoming better at anything, fuck
I saw it so many times in the way they talked, like true real hope being turned into just ash of disappointment, i would& #39;ve regretted meeting me too tbh
you know uhh, someone said I was literally at my lowest, maybe the only way is up from here, but it looks like im in the fucking bottom of the ocean where literally everything is dark and the pressure is so high your body would be destroyed immediately
this thread is the entire reason why I didn& #39;t want to get any help to begin with, im a fucking broken ass mess and the only thing I& #39;ve achieved in my whole life was to get severe depression over the course of 8 months. Nobody would& #39;ve fixed me even if they knew the answer..
