I'm sad tonight, sitting here knowing life is never going to be the same.

Can't we all see it? Whether you think Qanon is the weirdest conspiracy ever, or are an ardent Q follower; we have to agree that our world is a mess right now.

It can never be the same after this. Can it?

I feel there will be GREAT NEWS beyond the horizon; yet, I fear and worry for the time between now and then. For some the jubilation and relief will come earlier; while, we look back in pained empathy at our brothers and sisters who still suffer.

I just wanted comfort tonight. A Sunday night before the work week.

In the past, I would watch a ballgame, go to a movie, or do some Netflix to wind down before the week.

I can't bring myself to watch sports anymore.
I can't stomach turning on a Hollywood movie.
I can't...

...meet with my community (friends, family, spiritual).
I can't go to work.
I can't go to a performance or a concert.
I can't have a dinner party with my friends.
I can't get on a plane and see my family.

Damnit! This is prison! We are muzzled. This is prison.

And it makes me angry. And it makes me afraid. And it makes me sad.

And, I have FAITH and trust in JESUS! God wins!

We are going to have GOOD NEWS on the other side of this. I can feel it!

Yet, now, I also feel anger and fear and sadness.

Because I am human. We are human. xo