This morning i woke up to an interesting revelation.

I have been carrying the wrong parts of my past in my meditations and that had been making me hold a lot of resentment towards most people from Greg's (my secondary school)

I don't know why it was always fine to be unnecessarily ruthless and wicked like it was supposed to be cool to create trauma in the minds of kids.
Although many might not remember and just move on, I should probably tell the story of those who do remember

Imagine the amount of conditioning, peer pressure, insulting it takes to make a person change his identity from Stephen to Labrador

Or the amount of ignorant wickedness it takes to bite someone's shoulder and lift them as in my case. Thinking back I always wondered why I and Ejike were still friends and "Nwanem" but we really did go through shit under Afam

More for me though, I don't know where the energy to hate me back then came from and honestly I don't know why I'm thinking of it now at 5am in the morning but I really feel this thread is necessary for me now and me later

The imagination of myself in the past isn't a child that grew up smiling and that was for a number of reasons but holding this particular part in, although might contaminate my day, is necessary in order for me to let go at this sensitive point in my life.

@Famefuna you might not even remember any of this, it was a long long time ago and you were just a child with insecurities of your own that were passed on to a few others as traumatic experiences that filled my psychology with fear.

But I'm not a victim of anything, not anymore, I'm rather grateful for every part of my high school experience.