okay so I have to share this cz I& #39;m losing my fucking mind (this is a long thread about dumb complex emotions I& #39;ve had don& #39;t read if you don& #39;t care) so I was googling a math thing the other day and I found these blog things from 2005 and I suddenly got this weird feeling

in my chest like 2005?! it feels like I& #39;m looking into a stranger& #39;s distant memory are these ppl still alive what if they& #39;re d3ad did they succeed in life then I realized in 2005 they were just some carefree teens that went to school and came back and asked questions

on this new invention the internet and other ppl answered them but now they& #39;re 32 they lost that carefree era of their life and now probably have kids responsibilities bills to pay things to do then I realized that I& #39;VE JUST LOST THAT CAREFREE ERA and I panicked

like they& #39;ve changed so much that 2005 blog post is a trace left from the teen version of themselves that all that responsibility erased over the year and that& #39;s gonna happen to me soon and it& #39;s scary I don& #39;t wanna grow up https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz">

I& #39;m mentally ill very aware of that you don& #39;t have to point that out